This is DEFINITELY a call for HELP! HELLLLPPPP!!!

Trust Me...

... This Is...

A D E S P E R A T E C A L L F O R H E L P !

"My gift is my song

And this one's for you

And you can tell everybody

That this is your song

It maybe quite simple

But now that it's done

Hope you don't mind

I hope you don't mind

That I put down in words

How wonderful life is now you're in the world"

Tell me which girl will not fall for this. One important thing that any girl would expect in a relationship is to be appreciated (although I know that we would rather have guys know about this themselves, kan?~ seems more magical that way, lame, but where's the fun without that mystery, kan?). Picture a guy who sees all the best things about her behind her arrogance, stupidity or naivety... I strongly feel that guys seek for the same thing as well... but they are always afraid to admit it, and mostly too dumb to realise it... oh well, your loss :P

I better start praying now. God Bless~

Let us see if this will work....

Reminiscing the times when the 'parents' of my family would sit together with the younger ones talking about what they wanted to do when they were younger led me to think: "Do I want to ONLY talk about what I always wanted to be when I have childern one day?" ~ Because you know how people always say that "Talk is Cheap!" If you really want to do some thing, forget about the possibilities of failures that are about to befall you, since you know that when you fall, there will always be a reason for you to jump back up when you want to right? So where am I now? I just recovered from fever. I am done with final exams that I am hoping so badly to pass (Please, God, Please make sure that I pass all!), and I have so many things that I want to do, that is actually waiting for me to choose which to do first.
Motivation? I need self-motivation. I have family and friends who believe in me (maybe not all, but most of them could see what I see). Money? Boleh dicari. I can start selling things as soon as I wish to, right?

Should I think over on this?

It was..

an excrutiating pain. betol sik spell ya? I'm very tired and sick.

Maybe I am an Ego Maniac... So?

I do not care about what was lost.

I do not want to know what happened to the rest along the roads of the past.

I do not regret, as much as I would have been earlier after failures.

I think experiences make a person, and so I am now.

I do not turn back to the past.

I am strong and I believe that I am good enough for the future.

If there were scabs, hurt and pain, after awhile, I will heal myself with the faith I have.

I think patience strenghthens my beliefs.

And my strongest belief is in God.

I am beautiful.

I am strong.

I believe in Love, Knowledge and being true to myself.

Forgiveness would be the hardest thing to give...

But when you give one person a chance, then maybe you can change the world... bit by bit.

I am after all, human

Like you, and you, and you.

I can't simply avoid mistakes that cannot be undone.. and so can't you.

You might not be able to resist negativities, and so can't I.

But the world is round, and with the existence of Gravity:

What goes up, must eventually come down~

Philosophy to me is nothing more than the years and years of observation.

We learn from it.

We live it everyday.

So don't question me about my egoism.

This is me. I choose to be this way.

What you are, is then up to you.

<3

And this Life is Beautiful.

Thank you, God.

Not Feelin' Too Good

Feels like dying. My heads in pain, my whole body's as if it is numb. I have too much to do, and I can't afford to be SICK~ feckaroo~ :(

Sidney Sheldon novels!

2005 - The Other Side of Me
2004 - Are You Afraid of the Dark? : A Novel (Sheldon, Sidney) (read)
=1999 - Bloodline (read)
1999 - Sidney Sheldon 2-In-1: The Naked Face/the Stars Shine Down (read both at the same time)
1997 - The Best Laid Plans (read)
1995 - Morning Noon and Night (read)
1990 - Memories of Midnight (read)
1989 - Rage of Angels (read)
1985 - If Tomorow Comes (read)
1984 - Naked Face (read)
1980 - Rage of Angels (read)
1977 - Other Side of Midnight (read)
Master of the game (read)
Night of the Fox and Windmills of the Gods
Windmills of the Gods
The Doomsday Conspiracy
Outbreak
Stranger in the Mirror (read)
The Sky Is Falling (read)
Nothing Lasts Forever (read)
Tell me your dreams

~~I am going to the bookstore for the his novels i've not read, after finals, of course!~~ :)

WILL SOMEONE PLEASE TEACH ME HOW TO DRAW NICELY! :(

Listenin' to Incubus's 'Here in My Room',.. while doing this quiz... Worrying about Finals! ~

Dear Sara Nadia Suib, below are your PSYCHOLOGY PERSONALITY test result:

• You love the crowd... a party animal! Too many “friends”, you can’t easily tell which among them is real and not...
• You hide your emotions... Sometimes pretending to be always happy. Sometimes, not giving even a hint of what you really feel.
• You search for love... you’re a hopeless romantic and every time you enter a relationship, you give your all and believe “this is the One.”
• You have so many ideas in mind... You’re creative and aggressive! If you want something, you’ll do anything to get it!
• You’re a stubborn sweetheart... You “love” him/her only because he/she loves you. If his/her flame puts out, you let go with no trouble.
• You’re intimidating! People have an impression that you’re elite—or if not, you simply look sophisticated. You gain praises but not companions.
• You’re independent! You’re also risky just like the bajaken who sail in the vast and dangerous ocean to look for treasures!

Plan lepas Finals...

1) jual baju yang tidak dipakai lagi
2) kumpol duit
3) cari jalan untok menjamin masa depan~

Translation:
Title: After Finals Plans
1) sell clothes are not used anymore
2) save money!
3) find ways to ensure a secured future

WOOT!

It's just one of those days, that you don't want to wake up...

... everything is *toot*... everybody sucks! AHAHA. Goodness me, I feel like crying again. What is wrong with me? I've got no reason to feel sad... yet here I am, trying to resist myself from shedding a tear..
Oh, everything that surrounds me, plus my own condition right now, they're making me feel even worst. Everything at home seem so... down, blue, sad, tired, angry.... in short, all those unnecessary sickening thoughts. I can't cry, and I totally can't get sick now. I want to do my best this time 'round! <3

Tricky Tricky by Lou Bega

Whatever happened to lou Bega?

Clothier

Modern Clothier? How?

uh-oh

I want to DO IT! VERY BADLY....--> http://catwalkgenius.com

I Wish I Brought My Cam Today!!

Ok, so I'm watching my classmates presenting their final report for e-Commerce right now. They are so good at it, that I'm feeling intimidated by the stuff that they have. omG. They are so good at it. I wonder how I'm going to embarass myself in 2 weeks time... :'(
I have to keep this in mind:

"Being intimidated will make things worst; So prepare all you can, and go all crazy with confidence!"

*kiss, kiss*

~nuTt*~

The things he says

Ok, I am that typical female analysing every words and movements that people make. I hope my boyfriend won't freak out when he reads this.
I believe that we can read a person by taking note of what he/she is saying, and through the way they speak. I might be wrong, but all these here, are just a part of my own observation as a 'sometimes' quiet individual. To move on, let us focus on the two things I mentioned earlier that you should take note on: the words that are being said, and the way they are said.

Please do take note that if there are anyone out there reading this, who may be offended by some of the stuff I'm babbling about here, I am just doing this for the sake of... I don't know... "to kill boredom before I start with some academic reading, after having to listen to some old Destiny's Child's tracks... (eg: "Can you pay my bills?"~ Bills, Bills, Bills)". lol.

So here goes...

When a guy talks bad about you (the girl) from the back, 2 probable reasons that may contribute for this to happen might be:
a) he's offended with some thing that you've done... or
b) he wants you, but he doesn't know how to get you.
Example:

• He would say something like. 'I can't stand her bitching about people all the time' (usually guys won't bother unless if 'it'[her bitching] had affected him)... and
• 'She's okay, but I find her boring,' (sometimes, he will actually mean it, but look closely, sometimes there might be other meanings attached to it).

When he mumbles to you something that you could barely understand (well, he's mumbling, bah!), in a way, this guy's trying to tease you OR maybe, he's just afraid that he may get rejected. Lol.
For example:

• 'Would you jjrrr jrjr...me?' (translation: would you go out with me?)~ he's trying to invite you out, but he doesn't have the guts to do so.
• *he whispers*: 'Be my date', and then when you ask him to repeat what he said again clearly, he'll tell you that he was only talking to himself.

Other than that, Mr Man may tell you a lot of things about himself, he might open up to you on things, but he may also say something that could mean another. I am such a typical female. Lol.

Some guys might be really open on things. This may be caused by his confidence. Confidence is not really ego. Ego is when a person believes that he/she is right -- almost all the time, and he/she is so right that his/her beliefs should become a standard for other people. Annoying eh. Confidence, on the other hand, can be related to ego and pride. Confidence is when one knows that he/she is the best, and he/she is very proud of it. It's a good thing actually, because I believe that the people from this group have less to be sad about, because they're selfish.Thus they have little to worry about, and more to be happy about. And God knows that I want to be 'that' badly, but I can't. I guess it's about being positive. Lol.

So when a guy confidently tells you everything (all the good things) about himself, he's actually trying to offer himself to you. HAHAH. No, I'm just kidding. He's actually testing you, and he's trying to get it out of your mouth that you want him the way other girls would want him as well. He'll tell you that he can read you from the 'flickers' in your eyes, or the giggles in your voice, or even the excitement in your words. But when he gives up, he knows but well enough that he's worth more than to just wait for your acceptance (reply to his offer~ LOL. macam contracting jak).
Examples include:

• 'Darling you have the best looking eyes,'...wait for a few minutes or seconds,after a brief talk about something else, '... and girls always approach me when they spot me alone.' He seriously can't help it but to make you notice that he's something you cannot resist.
• Sometimes, this dude might tell you, 'I can help you with *this&that*', because he knows that he can do anything, and that he has everything.

Next is Mr Opportunist. He's not my ideal man, but when being opportunistic could benefit me, I won't mind much. Lol.

Opportunistic guys won't hide much of his opportunistic manner from you. Once he had charmed you with sweet words and his so-called commitment, he'll slowly ask for things from you. Examples are as exhibited:

• He will start by asking you: 'Babe, can I borrow *little stuff* from you?' Then...
• 'Honey, I am going to do *something very important~ coughs: lies*, can I use your *significant stuff*'. OHOHO... If he's that guy, RUN, Babe, RUN! Next thing you know, he's with some other chick, taking hold of you *significant stuff*~ eg: car.

There are no such thing as Mr Right, because Mr Right might be Mr A-Lot-of-Things-You-Don't-Know-Yet.

Mr So-Called-Right might tell you that you are the one. And if you're me, you'll ask yourself again and again... 'Am I?'. He will tell you that he prefers you to be that good girl all the time, so that he can sneak on to the other side when you're still focused on the 'good side'. Lol. Funny, but some people, like myself, can't take dishonesty, so I reject to the notion that you have to be an angel to take hold of a Mr Right. No Siree~ it doesn't work that way. With an open and positive mind, you'll be surprised to see the truth that's been there all the while. I'm not complaining (if you think so, it's up to you. lol), I am just explaining my perception on things like this. I mean, when you commit yourself in a relationship, you should already know that the foundation of such thing is trust, right? Then why lie, and wait to get caught? Lol. Better tell the truth, whether you're having a huge crush on your bestfriend, or that you still miss your ex. Things could work out when the truth is known.

Next category of guys I can think of now is, Mr Flirt. He's good with words, he's super friendly, BUT he's got his own barrier that separates you and him. He will tell you a million good things about you, and he'll make you feel like you're the best-looking person on the face of the earth, but he will never leave out that he's just another guy who is not interested in you. And one thing that will make you super comfortable interacting with him is that he'll make fun of you everytime after he praises you. He knows that he means it ;P . Playing hard-to-get ah, you? Lol. But these group of guys are super nice to have around, especially if they are good-looking. Wouldn't you want to have such friend? Lol.

Possible signs that he loves you is when he:

• doesn't get tired of you nagging all the time
• will always try to be the only guy that you can depend on
• gives you a lot of sufficient advice
• will help you tell between what is right and what is wrong (and you yourself should know what both are, so that you can detect if he's right)
• offers you his help, because he'd hate not to heroic. lol
• never regret being a fool for you.

In conclusion: I don't know if I'm right, but it's great to let things out like this. hehe.

So what do you do?

Hey Hey. Here I am again. I am disappointed with myself. But yeah, let go of the past, embrace the present as we reach for the future.
I've got lots to do. None of them won't be hard if I could just start doing them now. I will and I'm not going to stop. I miss Sin. I shouldn't say that, because it'd be against my egoistic code to say that. But yeah, I miss him. He's been super sweet despite my own condition these days. How could he have survived that?


I couldn't do things because I was scared. I was scared. Am I still afraid now? Let us hope I'll be over this foolishness.

<3

(If You're Wondering If I Want To) I Want To

By Weezer
The moon was shining on the lake that night
The Slayer t-shirt fit the scene just right
Through smeared mascara,
I looked into your eyes and saw a light

You told me stories about your chickadees
They didn't like BB guns and stupid archery
You charmed the lifeguard he let them use the pool all day for free

Then the conversation stopped and I looked down at my feet
I was next to you and you were right there next to me then I said

Girl, if you're wondering if I want you to
I want you to
So make a move, 'cause I ain't got all night

The rest of the summer was the best we ever had
We watched Titanic and it didn't make us sad
I took you to Best Buy, you took me home to meet your mom and dad

Your mom cooked meatloaf even though I don't eat meat
I dug you so much, I took some for the team
Your dad was silent, his eyes were fixed on what was on TV

Then the conversation stopped and I looked down at the ring
Your folks were next to you and you were right there next to me then I said

Girl, if you're wondering if I want you to
I want you to
I swear it's true,
without you my heart is blue
Oh, oh, ah, oh

Girl, if you're wondering if I want you to
I want you to
So make a move, 'cause I ain't got all night

So much pain may come my way
Then may come a day when we have nothing left to say

When the conversation stops and we're facing our defeat
I'll be next to you, and you'll be right there next to me then I'll say

Girl, if you're wondering if I want you to
I want you to
I swear it's true, without you my heart is blue
Oh, oh, ah, oh

Girl, if you're wondering if I want you to
I want you to
So make a move, 'cause I ain't got all night
Woo!

P/S: :D

Demotivated Mind

Slow. That's one feeling I am having right now. Motion seems slow as well. I am fairly demotivated. I have to get over it. I don't have time to feel sad or lonely or sorry for myself or anyone at all. Where the hell did that strength hilang?

huhhhhh....

Practice what you Preach

So here, I am going to enforce my preaching. I will, hereby, Practice what I have been preaching. I will keep on thinking positive. I will be hardworking (oh susah mok cakap if i barely mean it). I will be strong. I will be good, and never care about what other people's been saying about the stuff I did or the I'm doing because I know that I am doing the right thing! :D Hopefully, things will be better in time!

~nuTt*~

It's Friday Again~

It's Friday again, and I'm having mixed feelings of relief, confusion and stress... Impossible, right? But it's so. I am relieved that I'm done with CI assignment, I'm confused about the things that people have been doing, and I am very stress that I've got so many other stuff to start on right after today.
It's Friday again, and I hope that God is listening to my pleas right now: Help me stay positive, O God. Help me stay focus. Help me to succeed in life, and help me escape the unnecessaries.

Love,
~nuTt*~

I want to type something here. But my neck's killing me. And due to the neck pain, I am developing a fit. This fit is preventing my brain from functioning the right way. I am in pain. I am not supposed to be sick. I wish I could pull my head off, and take of this neck for awhile. So that I can continue reading boring discussions and rulings.

IT IS FRIDAY, BABY!

Keluargaku, Di Aidil Fitri <3

I miss these people! I am so glad that they came back for Eid even if I couldn't find much time with them, then though~ Looking through these photos, I wished I spent more time with them... but it's okay... sik lamak gik! :D

Whatever it is, I hope that they know that I love them, and that I'm missing them BADLY! <3

x,

Nadia~

A Greeting, Overdue: Selamat Hari Raya Everybody :)

Di Hari Raya ini....

I did not actually get to enjoy much of it... But I'm still glad that I have my friends and family around to make it happen... This is a photo of Jojo, Zachary and Isaac. I'm not sure when they took this one, I just stole it from Jojo's Photo Album on FB. HEHEH...

Here, this photo here was taken by someone, aku pun sik sure siapa... using Louis' camera~ heheh.. Ya Louis gik gago makan ya, sebelah Saiful, opposite Asy and Eka... Also in the photo: Julian, Aizuddin, Mas, Bono, Davisa, Amanda, Nappy and yang sorang gik I'm not sure who... where was I? camwhoring in the next room, with Gwen... ehhehe!

Ini dia, buktinya... This is one of the many photos taken using Gwen's cam. cantik ho? :)

LOOKY, LOOKY! Inilah traditional group photo pada hari yang mulia tersebut...... Please do note that Donald ada gik pose pelik2, as usual.. di ekot oleh Louis Lai.. Also in the photo: Anna, and Aisya :)

~ Selamat Hari Raya to All! :) ~

P/S: Sorry if I have not been able to visit your houses yet. I had to do my assignment, studied for test that I sat for yesterday, and spent only little time with most of my cousins.. sad eh... I'll make it up to you all, I will try! :D

Time to continue with delayed schoolwork gik!

Lines That Read My Thoughts

"...But I promise you this,

I'll always look out for you...

...My heart is yours.

It's you that I hold on to.

That's what I'll do.

But I know I was wrong,

And I won't let you down..."

(Sparks, by Coldplay)

What did you think I was doing?

Why am I still here?

Okay. I am panicking. I have no good reasons to do so, but I am. I am trying hard not to doze off in class (oh, tipu. I'm not even tired knowing the fact that I woke up at 4.40am for breakfast just now), or am I just leading myself to procrastination -- again! sheesh.
All right. I have mighty loads of things to do and slowing down now or doing anything else, but what I am supposed to is won't help me in anyway.
So, excuse me, Blog... I need to squeeze out my creative brain..

*kiss, kiss*
~nuTt*~

That Lonesome Day

Eyes were on the ground
As my head was facing down
Tears trinkled through
With my cries, did not resound.
No one would ever know
None would ever go.
But I'm thankful that this is done,
that lately, I had learnt to run.
Running was never, ever my field
Since running would turn my way back there
The world is round, as we might know..
So, running around to me, means stay.
Probably, there are some issues
Perhaps, there are also dues
But somehow I manage to find my route
That knowing every day,
and in every way...
I'll be better in time
And I will work, I would bleed
Just to get away, away from that need.

~The Mind Gym~

Issue 124 - Take the Leap Feedback (My Recipe for Leaping out of Bed and into Work)

Autonomy / independence
Your profile suggests that your top ingredient, or anchor, is autonomy / independence. This means that what you need most from your career is the chance to define your own work in your own way. Above else, you need a sense of freedom. Positives Some traditional organisational jobs allow a great deal of this kind of freedom, but often people with this anchor opt for self-employment or for jobs that are highly autonomous - such as freelance consultants, setting up independent small businesses or field sales. At your best you:

• Can offer potential employers the complete package: what needs to be done, how to do it and when.
• Don't need close supervision to get things done. You're already on the case.
• Are more flexible and so can offer creative solutions to tricky problems.

What to watch out for

You may be reluctant to leave an organisation that allows you flexibility regarding when and how to work. Opportunities for promotion or advancement may be turned down by you in order to retain autonomy. What you might try For you, freedom is paramount. Try these tips below:

• Consider your present job. Does it offer sufficient autonomy? What specifically in your career allows you some independence?
• How can bring more autonomy into your role at work?
• What opportunities satisfy your need for independence outside of work? Is there any way you can turn your outside interests into a career.
• If you really can't see any way to bring more autonomy into your present role, what other types of work would provide you with a better sense of freedom?

And now the science bit

In a study of 28 hospital cleaners (Wrzesniewski, 1997) with the same official job description it was found some cleaners saw it as a means to earning money (a job), others a way to become a supervisor (a career) and others saw themselves as playing a critical part in healing patients and anticipating the needs of the doctors (a calling). So, like any job, hospital cleaning can be all three - a job, a career or a calling. A job is what you do this for a pay cheque. You do not seek other rewards from it. It is just another means to an end. And when the wage stops, you quit. A Career entails a deeper personal investment in work. You mark your achievements through money, but also through advancement. When the promotions stop, you look elsewhere for gratification. A Calling is when you have a passionate commitment to work for its own sake. Individuals with a calling see their work as contributing to the greater good. The work is fulfilling in its own right without regard for money or advancement. The research demonstrates that, it's not the job description or the day-to-day tasks that give people a sense of working in a calling. Rather, it is how the person perceives what they do, whether their role provides them with a sense of meaning and purpose and how they view the impact their role had on a greater cause.

Edgar Schein developed 8 life anchors that reflect our basic values, motives and needs. Of the 8 anchors there are usually one or two that we won't give up. Knowing what these are is important because when choices have to be made our anchors come into play and become a driving force behind the decisions that we make. Our anchors evolve once we begin our working life and then generally remain stable across our adult life. Schein used the metaphor of anchor because once we know what our top two anchors are we track how these have floated with the different career paths we've taken throughout life. So just like an anchor we won't forgo this basic need however we use the insight to see how we can adapt our situations to be consistent with our anchors.

**Note: I got this from a quiz I did on themindgym.com.

The First Day of Ramadhan, 2009!

Hello, hello! Friends, family and anyone who's reading this~ Happy Ramadhan Al-Mubarak!I had a nice Friday yesterday, and I felt joyful beyond belief! :P (too much there, k!) Magical Friday, it was. I feel blessed in every way.

Today, Saturday, happens to be the first day of Ramadhan this year, and yep, I am fasting! :) Guess what I've been doing last night. Something kept me up late... I think Sin was turned off by me not listening to the first half of our conversation. Okay, okay.. I did this:

No, dear. Not the drawing. I did the sketch last year, in July. I think I posted a sketch like this on in one of my blog postings. Whatever it is.. what do you think? exuve is this something that I just joined yesterday, to do some e-Commerce Strategy report (on Crowdsourcing). And I guess they required the participant to let them know the inspiration for the design. I submitted! But I'm not sure if it reached the site. I badly hope so. Sin said they're gonna steal my design and bla bla bla.. For now, I don't mind. This is part of my dream. I wanna succeed somewhere, but exposure might be the important thing for Step 1. Yep, I'm still in Step 1. Lol.

Happy Ramadhan Al-Mubarak everybody, to all the Muslims and the non-Muslims! :) I love Malaysia. Hidup Perpaduan (Long live Unity!) Lol.. Thanks to Muneera Said, I became a crazy patriotic Malaysian. Okay, okay... lol

Until then,

xo~
~nuTt*~

I Love Anna Sui!!! :)

'You have to focus on your dreams, even if they go beyond common sense. How could this young girl from the suburbs of Detroit become a success in New York? It was always that dream.'

(Anna Sui, Anna Sui.com)

Help Me Find That Way

I believe there is no restriction for anything,.. if you want it bad. I want it bad. Why is there restriction to that? In this new world, is there any way that I can prove that I can do it? Again?

Problems, I have a lot. To get over them, will take a lot of effort. I am NOT going to simply accept a NO. NO WAY! I'm trying to figure out a way to get a YES. I will get it. I want it really badly. I have to get it no matter what. :(

Premonition

Why do I feel as though I know that Britney never loved KevFed, and was only with him to fill the void? I think she loves Justin and never got over it. KevFed never seemed like a man that is passionate enough to be loved, or could ever love.. LOL. just a thought.

Saya Terjumpa Ini Tadi

Not a fan, but this is quite interesting whether or not it is true...

http://michaeljacksonfromthegrave.com/postdeathmichaeljackson/index.html

Somewhere in Step 1...

click here (NO, no such thing as spam here; SERIOUSLY, I'm not Lying!)

• http://nuttisfreaky.daportfolio.com/

and

• http://www.midomi.com/index.php?action=main.profile&username=nuTt&tab=recordings

Achievements? No sign of that yet.

3 Lines: ...

1. Remember the time when we were remembering? (Powerpuff Girls)
2. Never say 'No' to yourself. (Heidi Klum)
3. She is a genius. (Jet)

Uish, Not Fair! Or is it?

Is it true that proper girls can't make history? And that good girls go nowhere? I don't think I am one, but I know that I'm too lazy to care about all that. lol.
I want to change the world. I wish for it to happen everyday. But I'm just too lazy to care! And that is BADDDD! Bodoh ba,... there are a million things that I can do, and I am nowhere near to where I think and BELIEVE I belong.
Boring eh. I know that I can do well but laziness is drifting me away from my destiny. Maybe it's not just laziness.. maybe the fact that I'm lack of confidence plus that I've always been a shy person is adding to the reasons to why I am so unsuccessful (in my own way). That's bad. It's something like being kiasu, innit? I want to get over it. But how? HOW???
Probably I'm going to try something.. Let's see if this will work...
For future updates, please tune in to the next posting~ (macam la ada orang baca pun lol)

Naughty, Naughty Girl!

Gosh, I know what some might think with the title I've chosen for this post, especially coming from a girl my age..
No, darling. Don't even go there.. I'm about to tell a story today, through this blogpost. A story about my childhood experience, about being a lousy person that I've always been. And it's got to stop, though at times resisting it might be close too impossible.
When I was a child, my parents would tell me off when I misbehaved by telling me to not be 'naughty'. Then, I was always trying not to be mean to my little brother (Amon), or tried my best to do very, very well in school (kindergarten) and you know... all those!
Now, I'm back to wanting to become that kid, pushing away the nasties~, wanting to be competitive? (Eh, NO, I hate competing, maybe competing with my goals, but not with anyone else). I don't want to be 'naughty'. I don't want to be screwed up. I'm going to get through this, I'm not going to TRY anymore. NO MORE TRYING. <3

"Luke: All right, I'll give it a try.

Yoda: No. Try not. Do... or do not. There is no try."

(Star Wars: Episode V - The Empire Strikes Back)

Slowly.... EXECUTE!

OK, I'm terrified here, all right! I have to do this. There is no turning back. I feel like blowing it off, but I can't. Not now, not AGAIN.

Of the many things I've given up, this should stay and WORK. No more giving up or turning back! I can't possibly do this to myself, AGAIN! NOT AGAIN! I believe in this, at least I should. I already have support and I can get guidance whenever I need one. All I need to do now is EXECUTE!

I can do this. This is my thing. Well, at least part of it.. I am doing this, and I'll try hard to push myself and not leave it astray like the rest of the things I believed in... in the beginning.. FUH.

This is IT.

ONE Simple Thing. ONE Simple Reason.

I NEED to find that ONE thing that seperates me from all others. That factor that makes me unique, that makes me stand out from this simplicity. I NEED that REASON for me to realise that I do have hope. I can be better... I can be the BEST. But what is it? Where is it? What is it about me that is uniquely the BEST?
This semester, I'm planning to go on a quest to find that missing link in me... Wish me well :)

I want to do it.. With My Own Two Hands!

Firstly, before executing this.... JANGAN JADI MALAS! =.=" it's gonna be hard, but I will do it. I will.

Spending a Day as a Couch Potato :P aka MOVIE REVIEWS!

This morning, I woke up kind of late... and drove back to my mom's place to shower because there were men fixing Nini's windows at her home.

I was too lazy too get up once I got to mom's and went watching movies on Astro...

I got stuck watching 2 movies... that I didn't expect to be interesting! The first one was 'When Harry Met Sally' and the other one was 'Penelope'.

So, 'When Harry Met Sally' is about two people who had met earlier in their years, where Harry was about to hit on Sally and got with her best friend instead.... and then they've not met each other until years after that where both of them were already tied with their own respective spouse.. and that was when Sally remembered how annoying Harry was... and after like another 5 years.. they met up again, both single... and miserable.... and they became like best friends (so cute!) until..... like duh ... you know what happens next! hahahahah! dunwana spoil it for you (if you decide to check on it lol)...

All in all, this story depicts on what we call in real life -- Jodoh. Fate. Destiny... It captured me so much because knowing that if it is meant to be then it is... <3>

Pas ya tek.. 'Penelope' is a modern day fable that revolves around a girl with a pig's snout and ears! o tedah cerita ya.. Christina Ricci played Penelope and James McAvoy played the hero, Johnny Martin... AHHHH! James McAvoy is UBER HAWWWTTT! okay... i dunwana spoil the rest of the movie.. so... better go check it out yourself... happy indah lepas tengok movies ya... ehehhee

Thank You

I feel so blessed today. Thank you God. I can feel imaginary tears coming out of my eyes. It wasn't much, but for now it is enough. Just enough and I shall continue my journey to achieve what is rightfully mine :) <3

What do I need to be happy?

What Do You Need to Be Happy?

You Need Success to Be Happy

You are a responsible and serious person. You like to do things well.Reaching your goals is very important to you, and you don't like getting sidetracked.You feel great when you are mastering new tasks and solving problems. You believe in hard work.Nothing makes you feel worse than feeling like you are doing a back job.

~I did this quiz on FB, and got this!!!! wahh.. o so true... I'm so tired of being laid-back when in fact there is this Obsessive-Compulsive Desire in me trying to get out tok... waaaaa....

UPDATES!

Cepat sik updates tok lok...

So here, this morning my dad called and set out some things for me to ponder about... I called Sin and told him that I want to set up some goals like concrete, bullet-proof ones that I will work hard for.. and I will try to abide to my self-made rules to achieve this... aduh...

I Woke Up One Morning and... HELP!

Help, I need somebody,

Help, not just anybody,

Help, you know I need someone, help.

When I was younger, so much younger than today,

I never needed anybody's help in any way.

But now these days are gone, I'm not so self assured,

Now I find I've changed my mind and opened up the doors.

Help me if you can, I'm feeling down

And I do appreciate you being round.

Help me, get my feet back on the ground,

Won't you please, please help me?

And now my life has changed in oh so many ways,

My independence seems to vanish in the haze.

But every now and then I feel so insecure,

I know that I just need you like I've never done before.

Help me if you can, I'm feeling down

And I do appreciate you being round.

Help me, get my feet back on the ground,

Won't you please, please help me.

When I was younger, so much younger than today,

I never needed anybody's help in any way.

But now these days are gone, I'm not so self assured,

Now I find I've changed my mind and opened up the doors.

Help me if you can, I'm feeling down

And I do appreciate you being round.

Help me, get my feet back on the ground,

Won't you please, please help me, help me, help me, oh.

~ One day I woke up from bed and found out that I'm older than I was yesterday... It disappoints me, because being wiser meant having more responsibilities and not being able to be carefree as I was before. I've not been doing things right... I'm 22 and I've been selfish the whole time. And it scares me. It's scaring the shit out of me..

Just a few nights ago, while I was going out with Sin, I broke down into tears (out of nowhere) and I realised all these.. I am sad. I am an adult (age wise). I am supposed to be responsible and I should take charge of my life, but how?

He repeated these 5 points to me the whole night, and I actually noted it down on my board...:

1) Never give up in anything I believe in

2) Have high confidence in it

3) Never let anyone's words and actions affect my believes (not even his)

4) Remember all of points 1), 2) and 3) (hold it in my believes) FOREVER!!!!... and

5) Do all the steps 1), 2), 3) and 4)

~ Now, where am I going to start? How am I going to do this? What is my goals and belief?

I'll update soon~ <3

Layan Emo~ <3

HUMPTY DUMPTY LOVE SONG



All of the king's horses and all of the king's men.
Couldn't pull my heart back together again.
All of the physicians and mathematicians too.
Failed to stop my heart from breaking in two.
'Cos all I need is you, I just need you.
Yeah you got the glue so I'm gonna give my heart to you.
I had a premonition, a movie in my mind,
confirming my suspicions of what I would find.
It followed me to L.A., down to Mexico,
came in through the back door at the start of the show.
Still all I need is you, I just need you.
Yeah you got the glue so I'm gonna give my heart to you.
Oh was a perfect day. Oh in a perfect way, you know,
something had go, you left me high, you left me low.
Now as I lie in pieces, and wait for your return,
the sun upon my forehead it burns baby burns baby burns.
An eye on all my horses, you've slept with all my men.
I'm never gonna get it again. Still all I need is you,
I just need you, I just need you. Yeah you got the glue,
so I'm gonna give my heart to you. Yeah you got the glue
And there's nothing I can do. Yeah you got the glue
So I'm gonna give my heart to you

You can see through my words. I know things that only you know. That was what we shared.

Sometimes I reminisce
Sometimes I ponder
The past was left
The future to be blundered..

I've fallen to the ground
I've floated I have flown
But one thing's trapped inside my mind
Is it true I've been unkind?

Emotions run deep
Sometimes it runs wild
But for me it's something I keep
I am a woman, I am a child.

I explore and I conquer
What I've learnt, what I went through
Experience, they're never ending
Some of which has been condescending.

I bow down to lowest of earth
I have rose to touch the sun
Since the beginning, until rebirth
I will be here to fight the time.

I am human, I'm not strong
I may defeat (or be defeated), though I am wrong
But can't I feel just one little happiness
or taking pleasures of being amongst...

These words I have not spoken
There are no intentions for hatred to be broken
Just my way to let them know
I have left, so long ago...

I have changed, emotions all dried
No way I could ever pried
If knowing this would change your views
I hope you know I needn't the news.

Fingers pointing everywhere
One or tens could land on me
Please just know to no despair
My conditions now, not less than happy

I feel blessed for loves and the grounds
That was bestowed down here for me
Nevertheless I wish the best
Here I am sitting with a glee...


Love and best regards,

~nuTt*~

P/S: I'm human too, I've no regrets expressing what I've been expressing. I never believe in hate, but probably during anger... and I fully believe in love and destiny that colors hope and dreams of mankind... I FEEL SO HIPPIE! YIPPIE!!! *creepy*

Cuti-Cuti~

So what have I been doing these days? :) Yeah, I kinda took a few pictures to describe the last two weeks I've been through... As usual, I had my vain moments.....
My boyfriend, Sin, came back for good (that's what he said) but he'd be busy working, leaving me to focus on other things like...

my lovely friends and cousins.... (Ana on the left, Nabiya on the right)

With my cousin Nabiya (on the left), there was never any dull moments... I actually gotten myself a cam-whoring mate :P for awhile... she just reached her home, back in KL a few minutes ago, I assume..

And I managed to find a little time to spend with these little tots, Mykell (I dunno how to spell her name!) and Zachary... <3 adorable la these two!

I did spend a little time with my twins besties... Dedek and Kakak (guess what we were doing here) hehehe.. but they just took off on a plane for a holiday in KL too...

Kakak, Munee, Ezra, Myself and Dedek, at the Spring's Starbucks... with dramas stuck in our agenda... :P

I get to meet up with Eliff and Louis too this holiday... and spent a bit of time jamming for a performance at Swin's Info Day...

Ben was our guitarist, whilst Louis played bass and Eliff was on the drums.. Ezra? How did he get into the picture? He sang solo for the performance, and we had a duet just now, while karaokeing at Popwave.. hehehe.. I heard that he's leaving for KL as well tomorrow... oh... :(

I volunteered for duty as well for Info Day... but I didn't get to do much... hehehe... or at all..!!! Jaik me.. I can still remember Moazzam complaining about how I didn't do much of the duty.. can't help it, if it's fate ba!

In the picture: Trista, Moazzam, Winnie, Munee and myself in the front.

Not in the picture: Mustafa (because he was the one who was taking this picture of us :P

This is not even half the things I did this holiday... but I promise to come up with more updates soon... I'm too tired ehh...

xx~

And then I went...

OHHHH~ It's been a tiring day.... after a tiring night.... I had to do so much and yet I do kinda enjoy the adventure I had...
I've been panicking and sleeping the whole day...and thanks to Zsa Zsa, I've been addicted to UNO that I even played it on FB!!!! mahahaha! I wana go sleep...

Just as I was about to be angry...

I was re-reading the last post I wrote before I did this one... I kinda got angry a bit... lol then this song resounded.. (Like a Star)... It's always the most soothing song... :) and I kinda forgotten why I was angry in the first place...
I can't wait for Froggie to get home already... I don't think I want to drive much these few weeks. I'm so tired of the stress.. It's been wearing me off ba... :( plus the things I've been going through these few weeks.. ugh.... I need to rest.
I've done a lot of wrongs, I think. I need to fix things now. I need to do things right, but where should I start? :/

MEAN OLD RUDE DRIVER!

This morning at about 9 am, I was somewhere near TAKA, Satok waiting next to a yellow line in front of the bakery, calling Angie, minding my own business until a cream kelisa (plat number QKV 2070) suddenly reversed from my right side. The car was reversing so fast that I honked my car. I WAS SLOWLY REVERSING OKAY! The male Malay male driver was probably having PMS awal pagi giving me rude glares and expressions. Ya ku berik middle finger! Dah la TUA, RUDE AGIK YA! Is that what you want to show the younger generations? BITCH! I hope you'll find this blog article and think twice before you ever do the sxame mistake. Berik malu dirik jak.
So sambong cita, I was driving behind him and he stopped lagik with his stupid mean rude glare! so I drove next to his car and bukak window to confront him and asked what's up la he was like that. I wanted to tell him that I honked because I wanted to warn him that my car was behind his. AND THERE WAS ANOTHER CAR COMING FROM BEHIND. So yeah, it was kinda my fault that my car was waiting on the yellow line, but there was plenty of space for a SMALL KELISA to REVERSE K! Kuchingites, it happened in front of TAKA Satok K!!!!! neyda road ya kecik... for a KELISA! and you know what.. he called me BABI!!!!!!!!!! orang tua sik malu ya panggil me BABI, so I shouted to him back: BITCH! (with another middle finger!) muka kedak sial jak. Panggil aku Babi, tapi you look fatter than me you BITCH! muka bulat jak! I wouldn't be bitching about you if you approached me with proper rational way. BITCH~

Because I Do Need the Strength!

I have lots in my head. I have lots to do this one month. I won't be able to spend much time with people I love, but I promise that I'll make it up to you all (family, friends and Facebook.. lol) as soon as I am done! I is the loving all of the YOUs! <3 and hold on tight 'cause I'll be there for you guys as soon as I am free from the evil clutches of academia! <3 hehehehe.... *nerding mode on*

Love,
Nerdia
(for this period only)

LOL

It's good to love and to be loved.

I feel blessed that I have what I have. I thank God for every single second I breathe. And I hope that I'll feel content like this for as long as I live. <3

No You Boys Never Care~

Lyrics Franz Ferdinand lyrics - No You Girls lyrics

The Prettiest Girl in the Whole Wide World.. by Weezer <3

Sunshine is falling.Over my head.Turtle doves are calling."Good morning, friends".And I got the prettiest girl in the whole wide world.And nobody can take her from me.And in the evening when she goes out walking alone.I wait at home patiently.I've never been so happy.I've never been so sure.Red roses blooming.All unaware.Of seasons turning.Of coming care.And I got the prettiest girl in the whole wide world.And nobody can take her from me.And in the evening when she goes out walking alone.I wait at home patiently.I've never been so happy.I've never been so sure.I got the prettiest girl in the world and I'm in love with her...

I wish I am one :) <3

Oh where did I get this? ...

We long for expression of love, but frequently, at the critical moment, we pull back. We are afraid of closeness, afraid of love, afraid of the very thing we so desperately desire. Why? Because we don't want to get hurt. -(Marshall Hodge)

Maybe Glad?

Although I do feel like I'm probably the most confused person on earth who is about to breakdown to tears, I am still holding on to my ego. I cannot embrace self pity. Not this time. Not anymore. I've had it knowing that I am weak. I am human. I cry at times, but I am strong. I have to believe that I am. No matter what is going to happen, it will happen for a reason. lols. And I have to go study. ~kiss kiss!

Cry by Kelly Clarkson

**note: I'm not a fan of Miss Clarkson, but this song just hit me in the chest this afternoon...

If anyone asks
I'll tell them we both just moved on
When people all stare
I'll pretend that i don't hear them talk
Whenever i see you, i'll swallow my pride and bite my tongue
Pretend i'm okay with it all
Act like there's nothing wrong
Is it over yet
Can i open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets
Is this what it feels like to really cry, cry
If anyone asks
I'll tell them we just grew apart
Yet what do i care
If they believe me or not
Whenever i feel your memory is breaking my heart
I'll pretend i'm okay with it all
Act like there's nothing wrong
Is it over yet
Can i open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it getsIs this what it feels like to really cry, cry
I'm talking in circles
I'm lying, they know it
Why won't this just all go away?
Is it over yet
Can i open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets
Is this what it feels like to really cry, cry, cry

This song is haunting me...

Strange and Beautiful (I'll put a spell on you) ~ Aqualung

I've been watching your world from afar,
I've been trying to be where you are,
And I've been secretly falling apart,
unseen.
To me, you're strange and you're beautiful,
You'd be so perfect with me but you just can't see,
You turn every head but you don't see me.
I'll put a spell on you,
You'll fall asleep and I'll put a spell on you.
And when I wake you,
I'll be the first thing you see,
And you'll realise that you love me.
Yeah...
Yeah...
Sometimes, the last thing you want comes in first,
Sometimes, the first thing you want never comes,
And I know, the waiting is all you can do,
Sometimes...
I'll put a spell on you,
You'll fall asleep,
I'll put a spell on you,
And when I wake you,
I'll be the first thing you see,
And you'll realise that you love me.
I'll put a spell on you,
You'll fall asleep 'cos I'll put a spell on you,
And when I wake you,
I'll be the first thing you see,
And you'll realise that you love me, yeah...
Yeah...
Yeah...
Yeah...
Yeah...

<3 Lines I Love from Songs

Oooo but it's cold outside~

I drew a line for you, O what a thing to do...

When you're dreaming with a broken heart, the giving out id the hardest part

Kept my eye on the first one out

You can always say you did no major harm

I'mma do the things that I wanna do, I ain't got a thing to prove to you

no I can't forget tomorrow, when I think of all the sorrow, when I had you there but then I let you go

Don't you worry 'bout a thing

Everybody need a change

I know from the moment I woke up, it's gonna be a lonely, lonely, lonely day~


O Baby, you're too pure; You're too pure for this wicked world...

If I Fell by the Beatles

If I fell in love with you

Would you promise to be true

And help me understand

'cause I've been in love before

And I found that love was more

Than just holding hands

If I give my heart to you

I must be sure

From the very start

That you would love me more than her

If I trust in you oh please

Don't run and hide

If I love you too oh please

Don't hurt my pride like her

'cause I couldn't stand the pain

And I would be sad if our new love was in vain

So I hope you see that I

Would love to love you

And that she will cry

When she learns we are two

'cause I couldn't stand the pain

And I would be sad if our new love was in vain

So I hope you see that I

Would love to love you

And that she will cry

When she learns we are two

If I fell in love with you

When You Say Nothing at All

How could anyone tell?
How would I know?

But sometimes the best things in life are perhaps, better left unspoken.
Unheard.
Unknown...

This would be yet another mystery to me
I hope the mark on its chest will make a significant meaning to the lives of those who should know the underlying meaning to it.

Time is just a melody <3

She Belongs to Me by Bob Dylan

She Belongs To Me
She's got everything she needs,
She's an artist, she don't look back.
She's got everything she needs,
She's an artist, she don't look back.
She can take the dark out of the night time
And paint the daytime black.
You will start out standing
Proud to steal her anything she sees.
You will start out standing
Proud to steal her anything she sees.
But you will wind up peeking through her keyhole
Down upon your knees.
She never stumbles,
She's got no place to fall.
She never stumbles,
She's got no place to fall.
She's nobody's child,
The Law can't touch her at all.
She wears an Egyptian ring
That sparkles before she speaks.
She wears an red Egyptian ring
That sparkles before she speaks.
She's a hypnotist collector,
You are a walking antique.
Bow down to her on Sunday,
Salute her when her birthday comes.
Bow down to her on Sunday,
Salute her when her birthday comes.
For Halloween give her a trumpet
And for Christmas, buy her a drum.

Memories~ (Mala jak...)

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I was cleaning up my room... rearranging books and stuff... and I found my old diaries~ (mesti dibuang!) lol... and I found my old notebooks.. that my friends and I used to decorate and write silly stuff in it.. talking about boys, boyfriends, lyrics (lagu kenak translate to BM), silly magic animals (I was the pink horse, Thila was the blue ox, and Gwen was the purple butterfly with the magic poop! hahaha)... and Mai's luahan hati... and Anna's ayatul kursi (thank you, love... that was one valuable thing I found :D)... and the notebook Esther made for me (RED and BLACK) :) rock bah! hahah.. and I also found pictures in the notebooks... gamba Thila pakei egyptian robe... a group picture without me inside (cos I was the one taking the picture) where the girls kenak sabo oleh Nabs! hahaha! muka lain suma retarded, Nabs jak sik! hahahahah! bodo eh time ya... and I found a letter from Thila~ talking about how we were dumb for joining cheerleading! hahahaha! oh, btw, the letter was glued to an x-mas card.. ehehhe..I miss those days.. and I'm gonna be 22 soon.. :'( OH! so tua... after the clean up, I feel more organised~ :D what else is there to do? esok mok dusting some stuff and lap sunnies~ I did my VB! It is done! SUCCESS~ and now, I should abide to the every principles I made up to ensure I do things right this time 'round....
I'm listening to 'Never Gonna Give You Up' by Rick Astley...'Never gonna give you up... Never gonna let down.. Never gonna run around and desert you~'.....

Lotsa Love to ALL!
xx
nuTt*

Audrey Hepburn's Beauty Tips :D

• For attractive lips, speak words of kindness.
• For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people.
• For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry.
• For beautiful hair, let a child run his or her fingers through it once a day.
• For poise, walk with the knowledge you'll never walk alone.
• People, even more than things, have to be restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed, and redeemed; Never throw out anybody.
• Remember, If you ever need a helping hand, you'll find one at the end of your arm.
• As you grow older, you will discover that you have two hands, one for helping yourself, the other for helping others.
• The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair. The beauty of a woman must be seen from in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart, the place where love resides.
• The beauty of a woman is not in a facial mole, but true beauty in a woman is reflected in her soul. It is the caring that she lovingly gives, the passion that she shows, and the beauty of a woman with passing years only grows!

Originally by Sam Levenson
Posted October 1999

"Contrary to what some may think, Audrey Hepburn did not write this beautiful poem, Sam Levenson did. Levenson wrote "Time Tested Beauty Tips" for his grandchild, and it just so happened to be one of Audrey's favorite poems. She read it to her children on the very last Christmas Eve she spent with us here on Earth." (gotten from http://www.wowzone.com/audrey.htm)

Please Don't (*)

Imperfections? Defects? :P apa ka defects indah... :D

FUTURO~

Right now, I'm doing nothing much (yep, not studying like I should be)... and listening to WEEZER's "The Angel and the One"... not my favourite, but the beat is very mellow. Listening to this makes me think... I have a purpose in Life. I should have a Goal in life. All this while, I have a lot in my mind, with all the current issues in my life (current issues... mhhheeehee) I kind of forgotten about the things I thought about when I was younger. When nothing would bother my thoughts about what I want to become. There was only me. Me in my many thoughts. No problems, paranoia, nothing that was really hurtful that would distract me from thinking about what I want. I wanted to become successful. I wanted to become creative. I wanted to do millions of things that I can't even think about now.
I'm not blaming anyone on this mess. Lol. I just got distracted with mixed emotions. As of now, I've not been in much of sadness. Maybe just loneliness since i'm living with the house's helpers... and no one else, except maybe uncle Reno who's only around sometimes. I meet up with friends in school. I vowed to myself not to hangout too much. And I'd be trying hard to convince myself that it'd be fun to attend all of the lectures and tutorials, and NEVER MISSING ANY OF 'EM. I want to succeed. I want to do VERY WELL. I want to do my BEST like I've never done it before. I can do it. I know that I can. If other people could do it then why can't I? :)
As a start, I've been focussing on the stuff that I love doing. Yesterday, I bought myself a headphone+mic (guess what I've been doing with that).. like I said I went to classes, and I found that when I really learn to understand the stuff they teach in class, it was actually interesting.. hehe.. (terrible... before this, I'd be all sleepy)... well I hope that this behavior of mine would last my whole life. I love being like this! :D
Still, thinking about all these at this age, I don't know where I'm going.. the direction I'm taking... I mean how can I know where I'm going when I don't know where I want to be? I need help. HELP. Yes, anyone who are reading this.. Nadia Suib needs your HELP.

Most Likely You Go Your Way (And I'll Go Mine)

by Bob Dylan



You say you love me
And you're thinkin' of me,
But you know you could be wrong.
You say you told me
That you wanna hold me,
But you know you're not that strong.
I just can't do what I done before,
I just can't beg you any more.
I'm gonna let you passAnd I'll go last.
Then time will tell just who fell
And who's been left behind,
When you go your way and I go mine.
You say you disturb me
And you don't deserve me,
But you know sometimes you lie.
You say you're shakin'
And you're always achin',
But you know how hard you try.
Sometimes it gets so hard to care,
It can't be this way ev'rywhere.
And I'm gonna let you pass,
Yes, and I'll go last.
Then time will tell just who fell
And who's been left behind,
When you go your way and I go mine.
The judge, he holds a grudge,
He's gonna call on you.
But he's badly built
And he walks on stilts,
Watch out he don't fall on you.
You say you're sorry
For tellin' stories
That you know I believe are true.
You say ya got some
Other kinda lover
And yes, I believe you do.
You say my kisses are not like his,
But this time I'm not gonna tell you why that is.
I'm just gonna let you pass,
Yes, and I'll go last.
Then time will tell who fell
And who's been left behind,
When you go your way and I go mine.

Whadya Think?

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Do You Think It is Put to Waste?

I have this feeling. It is a very strong feeling.. and it's hurting me. NO. I am definitely having that emo lovey dovey feeling. I feel as though I kesian some people. I hate that feeling. Nobody deserves to be kesian at k? Everybody's equal ba. I believe so. Nobody's too short, too tall (oh, even if I always use that on myself), too weird (come on la, everyone's weird) .. *the list just goes on..* I hate to PITY on people, k? Seriously. I'd rather just love everything and not feel bad and sorry about anyone. I don't know why. I just feel this way.

Moon River

by Audrey Hepburn



Moon River, wider than a mile,
I'm crossing you in style some day.
Oh, dream maker, you heart breaker,
wherever you're going I'm going your way.
Two drifters off to see the world.
There's such a lot of world to see.
We're after the same rainbow's end--
waiting 'round the bend, my huckleberry friend,
Moon River and me.


**I'm in Love. I love this song. (faints)