Road Rage (Catatonia)

If all you've got to do today is find peace of mind
come round
You can take a piece of mine
If all you've got to do today is hesitate
come here, you can leave it late with me
You could be taking it easy on yourself
You should be making it easy on yourself
Cos you and I kow, it's all over the front page
You give me road rage
Racing through the best days
And it's you boy driving me crazy
Thinking you may be losing your mind
If all you've got to prove today is your innocence.
Calm down, you're as guilty as can be
If all you've got to lose alludes to yesterday.
Yesterday's through.
Now do anything you please
Repeat Chorus
Space age, road rage, fast lane, minimum wage
Home late, upgrade, short-changed, golden age
Front page, lose face, handmade, space ache
Backstage, outrage, disgraced, maximum weight

when u do it this time, do it right. don't cheat. no shortcuts. effort. truth. keep it steady

panjang lok title ya. haha. i'm on bed in the front room at Nini's. just chatted with cousins and a few friends tek. but i should be doing my assignments now. so i told them that i'm kinda busy.
ok, so tujuan kamek menulis blog today is because i'm scared of this person that i'm turning into. yeah, i'm happy. but probably i'm too happy.. in euphoria! sik bagus jak rasa.. i feel very insecured with myself. i dream too much. i've been playing too much.. and procratination? CUBA UDAH GIK! huh.. i want to tell this to someone, but i know that all they can come up with is: 'lek la... biasa la ya..', or 'sikda apa2 ya bah...cuba iboh think too much..' or... '..boring kau... mala jak!' yang last ya biasa nya dari munee or kakak la...i'm so fed up with my nonsense! *slap slap* dirik.. mesti bodo jak rupa ku polah dirik ku gia..erk...
eeeee... there's this really dumb feeling in the pit of my stomach!dah dgr lagu breathless and like a star over and over and over and over again..
yesterday i went out with my mom.. pegi shopping.. and i was like so in love with this baju and pants.. terus pakei.. it's always too easy for me..!!i feel guilty for not working hard for what i am getting... all these..!it is making me less human.making me feel unreal.. i want to be real. i am not sure if i am ever real. macam my life sikda effort jak. o God. help me become budak baik yang mengenang budi orang tua.. :( aduh. emo la me now.. sobs.

Look what I crossed upon.

A few days ago, I was reading through forum posts made by friends regarding how the Malaysian has adopted to the Internet usage for everyday life. I crossed upon a statement of one of a friend and he was talking about online security and privacy, and how to prevent children or youngsters to browse through sites they should not be viewing. He totally brought up the issues whereby the government had been keeping track on sites that might be political-sensitive rather than protecting children from all these...So far, I think I would rather shy away from all these political mumbo jumbo, but if these issues would push away the importance of our younger generations, then someone please.... WAKE UP, up there! These bunch of little people are the hopes of the future.. like halerrrr!!!!!! ~ don't you give me that 'whateverrrrr' sign! hmpht.. even India and China are trying to do something to block the unnecessary sites from reaching the little minds.. why won't you DO some'in?!!!
okie dokie then.. 've got chores to finish~ bubbye~

di bulan ramadhan ini...

Ingin bubur pedas.... *muka kempunan*

Not Another Beginning, I Don't Need Another Ending.

Looking at the past
Killing time and wasting breaths
Doing what I must
Putting on the a wider path
Where am I to go from here?
Where is the map to 'disappear'?
Not liking the situation and the sight
I want to let go of this pretty fright
Soon the corners on these sides
'll perform a scene and then collide
Soon the starting of the end
May begin again, I don't want it to end...

This Thing.

There is this Thing
Inside my Brain
It's torturing my heart, my sight
There is this Thing
I long to kill
I wish I have the guts for that

My lovely senses, now
Badly despaired
My ability
To actually care
There is this Thing
Inside my heart
It's nothing more than something vague

Like snakes-it curled around my neck
Like smoke, it's choking me to death
Like hope that'll never ever help
To overcome this raging stealth

So please do not disturb o Lad
For this is a sanctuary this is my bed
This pain is as though pillows to my head
This Thing is like shelter from Glad.

Love Song~Sarah Bareilles

Head under water,
And they tell me to breathe easy for a while.
The breathing gets harder, even I know that.
You made room for me but it’s too soon to see,
If I’m happy in your hands.
I’m unusually hard to hold on to.
Blank stares at blank pages.
No easy way to say this.
You mean well, but you make this hard on me.
I'm not gonna write you a love song,
'Cause you asked for it,
'Cause you need one, you see.
I'm not gonna write you a love song,
'Cause you tell me it's,
Make or breaking this.
If you’re on your way,
I'm not gonna write you to stay.
If all you have is leaving,
I’m gonna need a better reason to write you a love song today.
Today.
I learned the hard way,
That they all say things you want to hear.
My heavy heart sinks deep down under you,
And your twisted words, your help just hurts.
You are not what I thought you were.
Hello to high and dry.
Convinced me to please you.
Made me think that I need this too.
I’m trying to let you hear me as I am.
I'm not gonna write you a love song,
'Cause you asked for it,
'Cause you need one, you see.
I'm not gonna write you a love song,
'Cause you tell me it's,
Make or breaking this.
If you’re on your way,
I'm not gonna write you to stay.
If all you have is leaving,
I’m gonna need a better reason to write you a love song today.
Promise me you'll leave the light on,
To help me see with daylight, my guide, gone.
'Cause I believe there's a way you can love me because I say,
I won't write you a love song,
'Cause you asked for it,
'Cause you need one, you see.
I'm not gonna write you a love song,
'Cause you tell me it's,
Make or breaking this.
Is that why you wanted a love song,
'Cause you asked for it,
'Cause you need one, you see.
I’m not gonna write you a love song,
'Cause you tell me it's,
Make or breaking this.
If you’re on your way,
I’m not gonna write you to stay.
If your heart is nowhere in it,
I don’t want it for a minute.
Babe, I’ll walk the seven seas when I believe that there's a reason to,
Write you a love song today.
Today.

Lovely Day

LOVELY DAY
(Bill Withers / Skip Scarborough)
Bill Withers - 1978
Also recorded by: Clarence Carter; Georgie Fame; Hootie & the Blowfish; Lucio Hopper; Wilbert Longmire;Out of Eden; Shakatak; Sybil; Take 6; Vibes.

When I wake up in the morning, love
And the sunlight hurts my eyes
And something without warning, love
Bears heavy on my mind
Then I look at you
And the world's all right with me
Just one look at you
And I know it's gonna be
A lovely day... lovely day, lovely day, lovely day ...
When the day that lies ahead of me
Seems impossible to face
When someone else instead of me
Always seems to know the way
Then I look at you
And the world's all right with me
Just one look at you
And I know it's gonna be
A lovely day.....
When the day that lies ahead of me
Seems impossible to face
When someone else instead of me
Always seems to know the way
Then I look at you
And the world's alright with me
Just one look at you
And I know it's gonna be
A lovely day......

SOMEONE HATES ME!

Haziq says:
i hate u

Aku bukan Nadia Dahulu... MAHAHAHAHAH (ketawa raja)

'Gonna take my chance

Gonna rock and dance

Gonna hit the ground

With a brand new sound

Looking for romance...'

'Glorious Day, Weezer'

WEEZER-ing lol

My Best Friend
When everything is wrong I'll come talk to youYou make things alright when I'm feeling blueYou are such a blessing and I wont be messingwith the one thing that brings light to all of my darknessYou are my best friendand I love you, and I love youYes I doThere is no other one that can take your placeI feel happy inside when I see your faceI hope you believe meBecause I speak sincerelyand I mean it when I tell you I need youYou are my best friendand I love you, and I love youYes I doI'm here right beside youI will never leave youand I feel the pain you feel when you start cryingYou are my best friendand I love you, and I love youYes I doYou are my best friendand I love you, and I love youYes I doYes I do...Yes I do


Perfect Situation
What's the deal with my brain?Why am I so obviously insane?In a perfect situationI let love down the drain.There's the pitch, slow and straight.All I have to do is swingand I'm the hero, but I'm the zero.Hungry nights, once againNow it's getting unbelievable.'Cause I could not have it better,But I just can't get no playFrom the girls, all aroundAs they search for someone to hold onto.I just pass through...singing...Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhhhhhhh.Singing...Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhhhhhhh.Get your hands off the girl,Can't you see that she belongs to me?And I don't appreciate this excess company.Though I can't satisfy all the needs she hasAnd so she starts to wander...Can you blame her?singing...Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhhhhhhh.Singing...Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhhhhhhh.Tell me there's a logic out there.Leading me to better prepareFor the day that something really special might come.Tell me there's some hope for me.I don't wanna be lonelyFor the rest of my days on the earth.[solo]Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhhhhhhh.Singing...Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhhhhhhh.Singing...Ooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh


The Damage in Your Heart
One more time I have crossed the line.Now you won’t be mine anymore.One more dream vanished up in smoke.Now I have no hope anymore.Let it go.The damage in your heartLet it go.The damage in your heartI can’t tell you how the words will make me feel.I can’t tell you how the words will make me feel.One more tear falling down your faceDoesn’t mean that much to the worldOne more loss in a losing lifeDoesn’t hurt so bad anymore.Let it go.The damage in your heartLet it go.The damage in your heartI can’t tell you how the words will make me feel.I can’t tell you how the words will make me feel.One more tear falling down your faceDoesn’t mean that much to the worldLet it go.The damage in your heartLet it go.The damage in your heartI can’t tell you how the words will make me feel.I can’t tell you how the words will make me feel.


Fall Together
We go together babyAnd if you doI'll be your weakness babyAnd get to youStream lineMain lineFall together, get upAny time you want me babyI'll be aroundThat's what they teach you babyTo dig my soundStream lineMain lineFall together, get upStream lineMain lineFall together, get upYeah, yeah, yeah


Why Bother
i know i should get next to you you've got a look that made me think you're cool but it's just sexual attraction it's nothing real so i'd better keep whackin why bother it's gonna hurt me it's gonna kill when you desert me this happened to me twice before won't happen to me anymore i've known a lotta girls before what's the harm in knowing one more? maybe we could even get together maybe you could break my heart next summer why bother it's gonna hurt me it's gonna kill when you desert me this happened to me twice before won't happen to me anymore it's a crying shame i'm all alone not with you - nor her - nor anyone won't deny me of my head crack it open and then i would share why bother it's gonna hurt me it's gonna kill when you desert me this happened to me twice before won't happen to me anymore

beauties

beautiful pics i got from auntie lalita...lol... nya padah tangan amon lam gambar ya pelik. lol

fear.hurt.happiness

this week i managed to learn a bit more about stuff. i'm scared i might not have enough time i could spend with the people i love the most. i went to visit my grandma before i go off later this evening. at first she did not want to react to me. until i showed her that i still keep the ring she gave me. she was admitted last friday.she was unconcious for a few hours and had a short term memory lost which got me very worried that i quickly purchase a ticket to KL.she improved and was discharged yesterday. but she seemed quite tired and weak and she could only mumble to speak.she cried when i left. i had to hold myself firm so that i won't burst to tears myself. i made her promise just now that if she gets stronger the next time i return to KL i'll definitely will bring her out around KL. she cried a bit more.but i kissed her and told her that i'll be seeing her soon and she replied,'OK la' which left me smiling for awhile. i'm keeping my word.i will return to see her and make her happy again. i Love her so much. and i hope that she'll get better and better everyday so that she'll be in a happier state. i'm gona miss my family here in KL and i hope that God will always protect them from harm wherever they are all over the world, so as those that i love and who loves me.

xoxo
Nadia~

Ideology of an Idiot.

What were ideas that were considered idiotic to some but are still practiced by many?

Sitauk how to start here. macam stuck jak. WAR maybe is one of them... nak? come on la. be diplomatic. you dun need to kill people to get something right? abolishing other people's homes and workplaces... and killing old folks, women and children... 'accidentally' (yeah right)... you dun need some complicated overly sophisticated words to express yourselves to others. mun jealous pun... sik lalu nak bunoh urg. sabar bahhhh... lol. apa ka? i'm crapping again... omG.

susah. susah gilak

okay, here goes...

i'm here
stuck with words
that i couldn't come up with
it's wrong
it's against me
so i'm shutting up
not displaying
not hinting
not trying to make you see through me
because you'll see underneath it all
is just a scum
an urchin
a useless torn tissue
discolored.

so it'd be like this
just as it is
no more emotional communication
nor sadness alike
just as it is.

just as it is
as susah as it might be.

let it be.

crying because of a receipt

i lost the receipt! i'm so sad! omG! everything is not going to well for me today. all because of that receipt... i hope the sales girl kesian me and let me change the item with a new one later. :( i want that baju so badly!!!!!!! *feet stomping*

The Truth About Today

Today's date is the 25th of July 2008. Right now it is already 12.53 pm. I was out of things to do, so i decided to drive myself to Swinburne. I'm out of things to do. Probably a bit later, I'll be going to the tailor. Yesterday I was told to make a very important decision for my future.. LoL. loba kali bunyi lok.. nothing big, but it seemed like it was very important for awhile. Zakiy just called me a few minutes ago, telling me that he has 2 tickets to see CHELSEA this TUESDAY! darn it that child! I am very jealous. I want to meet BALLACK! lol.. but maybe next time in the future, kan? Zsa just left me yesterday, I'll just be anticipating for Mai to come over soon. waaaaaaaaaaaaa.... i'm feeling ver LONELY now!!!! sobs...

Hmph.

I'm a boring person.prbly that is y ppl desert me almost all the time.besides the fact that i m a fugly miss piggy.

Grasping the Light

To become mortal
We hurt ourselves
We accept the pain
For Love
There is no such thing as freebies. Every single thing we do to achieve pure happiness requires sacrifice. Jeeewaaaaang!

Achievement Pouch

Today, I have achieved 2 things I've always wanted to do. (1)I have succesfully made the pouch displayed above using Nini's (my Grandma) rather antique sewing machine (classical indeed :-P),of course with her guidance; AND (2) I cleaned my balcony SPOTLESS! (Seriously, I just couldn't depend on anyone anymore these days)..lol. Tomorrow's goal? Will let you know then!:-D