Just as I was about to be angry...

I was re-reading the last post I wrote before I did this one... I kinda got angry a bit... lol then this song resounded.. (Like a Star)... It's always the most soothing song... :) and I kinda forgotten why I was angry in the first place...
I can't wait for Froggie to get home already... I don't think I want to drive much these few weeks. I'm so tired of the stress.. It's been wearing me off ba... :( plus the things I've been going through these few weeks.. ugh.... I need to rest.
I've done a lot of wrongs, I think. I need to fix things now. I need to do things right, but where should I start? :/

MEAN OLD RUDE DRIVER!

This morning at about 9 am, I was somewhere near TAKA, Satok waiting next to a yellow line in front of the bakery, calling Angie, minding my own business until a cream kelisa (plat number QKV 2070) suddenly reversed from my right side. The car was reversing so fast that I honked my car. I WAS SLOWLY REVERSING OKAY! The male Malay male driver was probably having PMS awal pagi giving me rude glares and expressions. Ya ku berik middle finger! Dah la TUA, RUDE AGIK YA! Is that what you want to show the younger generations? BITCH! I hope you'll find this blog article and think twice before you ever do the sxame mistake. Berik malu dirik jak.
So sambong cita, I was driving behind him and he stopped lagik with his stupid mean rude glare! so I drove next to his car and bukak window to confront him and asked what's up la he was like that. I wanted to tell him that I honked because I wanted to warn him that my car was behind his. AND THERE WAS ANOTHER CAR COMING FROM BEHIND. So yeah, it was kinda my fault that my car was waiting on the yellow line, but there was plenty of space for a SMALL KELISA to REVERSE K! Kuchingites, it happened in front of TAKA Satok K!!!!! neyda road ya kecik... for a KELISA! and you know what.. he called me BABI!!!!!!!!!! orang tua sik malu ya panggil me BABI, so I shouted to him back: BITCH! (with another middle finger!) muka kedak sial jak. Panggil aku Babi, tapi you look fatter than me you BITCH! muka bulat jak! I wouldn't be bitching about you if you approached me with proper rational way. BITCH~

Because I Do Need the Strength!

I have lots in my head. I have lots to do this one month. I won't be able to spend much time with people I love, but I promise that I'll make it up to you all (family, friends and Facebook.. lol) as soon as I am done! I is the loving all of the YOUs! <3 and hold on tight 'cause I'll be there for you guys as soon as I am free from the evil clutches of academia! <3 hehehehe.... *nerding mode on*

Love,
Nerdia
(for this period only)

LOL

It's good to love and to be loved.

I feel blessed that I have what I have. I thank God for every single second I breathe. And I hope that I'll feel content like this for as long as I live. <3

No You Boys Never Care~

Lyrics Franz Ferdinand lyrics - No You Girls lyrics

The Prettiest Girl in the Whole Wide World.. by Weezer <3

Sunshine is falling.Over my head.Turtle doves are calling."Good morning, friends".And I got the prettiest girl in the whole wide world.And nobody can take her from me.And in the evening when she goes out walking alone.I wait at home patiently.I've never been so happy.I've never been so sure.Red roses blooming.All unaware.Of seasons turning.Of coming care.And I got the prettiest girl in the whole wide world.And nobody can take her from me.And in the evening when she goes out walking alone.I wait at home patiently.I've never been so happy.I've never been so sure.I got the prettiest girl in the world and I'm in love with her...

I wish I am one :) <3

Oh where did I get this? ...

We long for expression of love, but frequently, at the critical moment, we pull back. We are afraid of closeness, afraid of love, afraid of the very thing we so desperately desire. Why? Because we don't want to get hurt. -(Marshall Hodge)

Maybe Glad?

Although I do feel like I'm probably the most confused person on earth who is about to breakdown to tears, I am still holding on to my ego. I cannot embrace self pity. Not this time. Not anymore. I've had it knowing that I am weak. I am human. I cry at times, but I am strong. I have to believe that I am. No matter what is going to happen, it will happen for a reason. lols. And I have to go study. ~kiss kiss!

Cry by Kelly Clarkson

**note: I'm not a fan of Miss Clarkson, but this song just hit me in the chest this afternoon...

If anyone asks
I'll tell them we both just moved on
When people all stare
I'll pretend that i don't hear them talk
Whenever i see you, i'll swallow my pride and bite my tongue
Pretend i'm okay with it all
Act like there's nothing wrong
Is it over yet
Can i open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets
Is this what it feels like to really cry, cry
If anyone asks
I'll tell them we just grew apart
Yet what do i care
If they believe me or not
Whenever i feel your memory is breaking my heart
I'll pretend i'm okay with it all
Act like there's nothing wrong
Is it over yet
Can i open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it getsIs this what it feels like to really cry, cry
I'm talking in circles
I'm lying, they know it
Why won't this just all go away?
Is it over yet
Can i open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets
Is this what it feels like to really cry, cry, cry

This song is haunting me...

Strange and Beautiful (I'll put a spell on you) ~ Aqualung

I've been watching your world from afar,
I've been trying to be where you are,
And I've been secretly falling apart,
unseen.
To me, you're strange and you're beautiful,
You'd be so perfect with me but you just can't see,
You turn every head but you don't see me.
I'll put a spell on you,
You'll fall asleep and I'll put a spell on you.
And when I wake you,
I'll be the first thing you see,
And you'll realise that you love me.
Yeah...
Yeah...
Sometimes, the last thing you want comes in first,
Sometimes, the first thing you want never comes,
And I know, the waiting is all you can do,
Sometimes...
I'll put a spell on you,
You'll fall asleep,
I'll put a spell on you,
And when I wake you,
I'll be the first thing you see,
And you'll realise that you love me.
I'll put a spell on you,
You'll fall asleep 'cos I'll put a spell on you,
And when I wake you,
I'll be the first thing you see,
And you'll realise that you love me, yeah...
Yeah...
Yeah...
Yeah...
Yeah...

<3 Lines I Love from Songs

Oooo but it's cold outside~

I drew a line for you, O what a thing to do...

When you're dreaming with a broken heart, the giving out id the hardest part

Kept my eye on the first one out

You can always say you did no major harm

I'mma do the things that I wanna do, I ain't got a thing to prove to you

no I can't forget tomorrow, when I think of all the sorrow, when I had you there but then I let you go

Don't you worry 'bout a thing

Everybody need a change

I know from the moment I woke up, it's gonna be a lonely, lonely, lonely day~


O Baby, you're too pure; You're too pure for this wicked world...

If I Fell by the Beatles

If I fell in love with you

Would you promise to be true

And help me understand

'cause I've been in love before

And I found that love was more

Than just holding hands

If I give my heart to you

I must be sure

From the very start

That you would love me more than her

If I trust in you oh please

Don't run and hide

If I love you too oh please

Don't hurt my pride like her

'cause I couldn't stand the pain

And I would be sad if our new love was in vain

So I hope you see that I

Would love to love you

And that she will cry

When she learns we are two

'cause I couldn't stand the pain

And I would be sad if our new love was in vain

So I hope you see that I

Would love to love you

And that she will cry

When she learns we are two

If I fell in love with you

When You Say Nothing at All

How could anyone tell?
How would I know?

But sometimes the best things in life are perhaps, better left unspoken.
Unheard.
Unknown...

This would be yet another mystery to me
I hope the mark on its chest will make a significant meaning to the lives of those who should know the underlying meaning to it.

Time is just a melody <3

She Belongs to Me by Bob Dylan

She Belongs To Me
She's got everything she needs,
She's an artist, she don't look back.
She's got everything she needs,
She's an artist, she don't look back.
She can take the dark out of the night time
And paint the daytime black.
You will start out standing
Proud to steal her anything she sees.
You will start out standing
Proud to steal her anything she sees.
But you will wind up peeking through her keyhole
Down upon your knees.
She never stumbles,
She's got no place to fall.
She never stumbles,
She's got no place to fall.
She's nobody's child,
The Law can't touch her at all.
She wears an Egyptian ring
That sparkles before she speaks.
She wears an red Egyptian ring
That sparkles before she speaks.
She's a hypnotist collector,
You are a walking antique.
Bow down to her on Sunday,
Salute her when her birthday comes.
Bow down to her on Sunday,
Salute her when her birthday comes.
For Halloween give her a trumpet
And for Christmas, buy her a drum.

Memories~ (Mala jak...)

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I was cleaning up my room... rearranging books and stuff... and I found my old diaries~ (mesti dibuang!) lol... and I found my old notebooks.. that my friends and I used to decorate and write silly stuff in it.. talking about boys, boyfriends, lyrics (lagu kenak translate to BM), silly magic animals (I was the pink horse, Thila was the blue ox, and Gwen was the purple butterfly with the magic poop! hahaha)... and Mai's luahan hati... and Anna's ayatul kursi (thank you, love... that was one valuable thing I found :D)... and the notebook Esther made for me (RED and BLACK) :) rock bah! hahah.. and I also found pictures in the notebooks... gamba Thila pakei egyptian robe... a group picture without me inside (cos I was the one taking the picture) where the girls kenak sabo oleh Nabs! hahaha! muka lain suma retarded, Nabs jak sik! hahahahah! bodo eh time ya... and I found a letter from Thila~ talking about how we were dumb for joining cheerleading! hahahaha! oh, btw, the letter was glued to an x-mas card.. ehehhe..I miss those days.. and I'm gonna be 22 soon.. :'( OH! so tua... after the clean up, I feel more organised~ :D what else is there to do? esok mok dusting some stuff and lap sunnies~ I did my VB! It is done! SUCCESS~ and now, I should abide to the every principles I made up to ensure I do things right this time 'round....
I'm listening to 'Never Gonna Give You Up' by Rick Astley...'Never gonna give you up... Never gonna let down.. Never gonna run around and desert you~'.....

Lotsa Love to ALL!
xx
nuTt*

Audrey Hepburn's Beauty Tips :D

• For attractive lips, speak words of kindness.
• For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people.
• For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry.
• For beautiful hair, let a child run his or her fingers through it once a day.
• For poise, walk with the knowledge you'll never walk alone.
• People, even more than things, have to be restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed, and redeemed; Never throw out anybody.
• Remember, If you ever need a helping hand, you'll find one at the end of your arm.
• As you grow older, you will discover that you have two hands, one for helping yourself, the other for helping others.
• The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair. The beauty of a woman must be seen from in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart, the place where love resides.
• The beauty of a woman is not in a facial mole, but true beauty in a woman is reflected in her soul. It is the caring that she lovingly gives, the passion that she shows, and the beauty of a woman with passing years only grows!

Originally by Sam Levenson
Posted October 1999

"Contrary to what some may think, Audrey Hepburn did not write this beautiful poem, Sam Levenson did. Levenson wrote "Time Tested Beauty Tips" for his grandchild, and it just so happened to be one of Audrey's favorite poems. She read it to her children on the very last Christmas Eve she spent with us here on Earth." (gotten from http://www.wowzone.com/audrey.htm)

Please Don't (*)

Imperfections? Defects? :P apa ka defects indah... :D

FUTURO~

Right now, I'm doing nothing much (yep, not studying like I should be)... and listening to WEEZER's "The Angel and the One"... not my favourite, but the beat is very mellow. Listening to this makes me think... I have a purpose in Life. I should have a Goal in life. All this while, I have a lot in my mind, with all the current issues in my life (current issues... mhhheeehee) I kind of forgotten about the things I thought about when I was younger. When nothing would bother my thoughts about what I want to become. There was only me. Me in my many thoughts. No problems, paranoia, nothing that was really hurtful that would distract me from thinking about what I want. I wanted to become successful. I wanted to become creative. I wanted to do millions of things that I can't even think about now.
I'm not blaming anyone on this mess. Lol. I just got distracted with mixed emotions. As of now, I've not been in much of sadness. Maybe just loneliness since i'm living with the house's helpers... and no one else, except maybe uncle Reno who's only around sometimes. I meet up with friends in school. I vowed to myself not to hangout too much. And I'd be trying hard to convince myself that it'd be fun to attend all of the lectures and tutorials, and NEVER MISSING ANY OF 'EM. I want to succeed. I want to do VERY WELL. I want to do my BEST like I've never done it before. I can do it. I know that I can. If other people could do it then why can't I? :)
As a start, I've been focussing on the stuff that I love doing. Yesterday, I bought myself a headphone+mic (guess what I've been doing with that).. like I said I went to classes, and I found that when I really learn to understand the stuff they teach in class, it was actually interesting.. hehe.. (terrible... before this, I'd be all sleepy)... well I hope that this behavior of mine would last my whole life. I love being like this! :D
Still, thinking about all these at this age, I don't know where I'm going.. the direction I'm taking... I mean how can I know where I'm going when I don't know where I want to be? I need help. HELP. Yes, anyone who are reading this.. Nadia Suib needs your HELP.

Most Likely You Go Your Way (And I'll Go Mine)

by Bob Dylan



You say you love me
And you're thinkin' of me,
But you know you could be wrong.
You say you told me
That you wanna hold me,
But you know you're not that strong.
I just can't do what I done before,
I just can't beg you any more.
I'm gonna let you passAnd I'll go last.
Then time will tell just who fell
And who's been left behind,
When you go your way and I go mine.
You say you disturb me
And you don't deserve me,
But you know sometimes you lie.
You say you're shakin'
And you're always achin',
But you know how hard you try.
Sometimes it gets so hard to care,
It can't be this way ev'rywhere.
And I'm gonna let you pass,
Yes, and I'll go last.
Then time will tell just who fell
And who's been left behind,
When you go your way and I go mine.
The judge, he holds a grudge,
He's gonna call on you.
But he's badly built
And he walks on stilts,
Watch out he don't fall on you.
You say you're sorry
For tellin' stories
That you know I believe are true.
You say ya got some
Other kinda lover
And yes, I believe you do.
You say my kisses are not like his,
But this time I'm not gonna tell you why that is.
I'm just gonna let you pass,
Yes, and I'll go last.
Then time will tell who fell
And who's been left behind,
When you go your way and I go mine.

Whadya Think?

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.