and it goes like... WHAT???

unexpectant. that's how it is these days. things happen naturally, yet we should never expect it to be the way we would want it to be. my life can be all screwed up at times. but i'll always try to get myself up again even though at times i might fail. so am i strong enough? i hope so. i need to be so. i wish i could be dependent on someone, but my problem is that i couldn't trust anyone so easily. although life has been real piece of shit sometimes, we gotta move on don't we?
there is probably such thing as happiness if you dare search for it long and wide, but when you've had enough of something that will bring you down over again, why waste time? I'M NOT BEING PESSIMISTIC! i'm just being plain realistic. i love every second i breathe, because it is like a never ending adventure to me. *i feel like slapping someone's face right now*
there are more to life than those who had hurt you or those who will do that.
Corporate Accounting is very hard because i'm such a lazy bum, Company Law is killing me because i dont feel like reading, Macroeconomics is so far away from my mind because I'm terribly panicked by the other two... OmG!MDM! :'(
yeah.. i'm not making any sense. blergh.

Way too far away from heaven..

*snores*

The Secret...

i am very proud of Jojo!she'd just received JPA scholarship to study medic in overseas! WOW! and she told me that she managed to do all that because she was very determined that she could do it... and that her secret was that she'll tell herself everyday that she's going to achieve all of her goals!!! i want to be that strong!!!!! and i will.. somehow.. lol muacks.

HAHAHA!!!!! I'm tired.. :~(

i am doing MDM assignment now.. very much like nak pisan tok...hmmm...

My currently favourite ice cream!

I dun remember wat its called,but its got the taste of strawberry,blueberry and honeydew yoghurt..huhu..yum..

We're Gonna Make It a Blue Day!

Good morning! What a beautiful morning..was half-way studying n thought..I Love Ballack!he's my Hero!lol..angin katakan padanya..bahawa aku cinta dia..aa..haha!sweet victory for Chelsea!and dear fans of the MUFC, boh la jadi sore loser n boo org jak!lol.

Seeing doubles..

...yes,i put on weight..

Happy Birthday to Me!

'twas a happy birthday indeed..:-D

Bad hair day..

*Yech*

I'll be keeping my eyes on you

it's built to last...

lalalalala!!!!good morning~ right now m still in bed refusing to get out of it. life's been busy lately. sometimes very complicated. but it won't be much complicated if i didn't actually made it so. which i did. had a game of futsal yesterday. didn't really wanted to come, but was forced by a few friends. it turned out to be quite fun, but eventually fatty me got really exhausted and couldn't handle much of it.. lol. i was sent home and had to pick up jojo. went to helong's for laing's farewell (damn smart kids of today!-->referring to laing and jojo), going to fly off to kursk, russia tomorrow.. both laing and jojo's going to study medic! gila bahh... i'm so jealous! they're so smart... later this afternoon, i'll be heading to sports planet to join ellyas and jojo for a game of futsal-again!m not really good at it, but i'm trying to burn as much fat as possible... i can't be fat forever! my legs are so gigantous!i am so sad... :( boo hoo! i don't know what i'm crapping about now, but i guess i'm going out of context everytime i start a sentence. o well, this is my blog so i don't give a damn about wat other people think about what i'm writing right now. i don't want to be a year older!~ i refuse to meet the day,... but it's gona be very soon i tell you... very soon!!! darn it! i miss being 16 and naive and dumb and carefree and .... un-old...blekhhh.... have t ogo chk on Z..muax.

please don't touch me..i'm scared of you.

there's no reason to stay
there are no words to describe this
a tough lesson just beat me hard
and brought me down
i'm in no motion to please
i'm in no thoughts to impress
i am whole and cold
seems like this is what i've been trying to embrace
do not stab me over again
do not trample this unworthy soul
my shoulder breaks
i fall
but this is where i am
in love with the serene thought of selflessness
so please read this plea
please do not touch me
please do not harm me
for i am scared of you.

Blankie..

I love Dedek's blankie just like how much i love Dedek!heehee..

Early morning sun

Alhamdulillah:-)

WTF am I Doing Now?

Lol.i am supposed to write a summary about my case study and look at what i'm doing now. i've been thinking a lot about the country's economy and politics. i have to admit this, the politicians in malaysia nang sikpat diharap. harap kan pagar, pagar makan padi. sitauk juak giney pagar pandey makan padi. dah la pagar sikda mulut.. padi gik keras. like malaysians la. the people's representatives ramai yang sikpat diharap. dah dpt power to speak pun sik bermulut gilak. and the people pulak banyak complain. just like myself,... but i am considered under aged now... (not for long!!),...salu jak kenak makan pagar yang sik bermulut.lol. so funny. ya nang keak bulak laaaa... and now sapa yang suffer the most? padi yang dah jadi taik kepada pagar itu jugak. hahaha!!!! dah hari ya my grandma kerepak: if i were in charge of the country, i would definitely increase the income of the people... if they could admit to the fact that harga barang nait melambung lambung is because standard of living naik at the same rate... like halo!!!! apahal many people complain dengan ketidakpuashatian ?!!!!
aku nang suka kerepak, but i have a really good reason to do that right??how to repair my car if i dont have enough money to save for petrol and phone reload?? food iboh pdh gik... yeah go on and promote your bubur nasik yang sekda rasa ya... the price of cooking oil, salt and tepung naik bah... i thought we are PRODUCING those stuff... apa le... i have to go study now.. bubbyes!

Me & My Baby

Aww..i miss Z so much!

awhile... and then some...

this is the time when i feel like i want to sing so badly. when my heart is aching and my soul is confused... but my throat is sore and i'm having a heavy migraine. i'm lost. i always am. i can't think the way i used to. some say that i'm going through a phase where i am becoming stronger than i have ever been. but am i?
a good friend just left us a few days ago... when he was alive i thought that i could read through him... why did i feel that way? i bet everyone of us felt the loss. i had cousins and friends from near and abroad telling me that even though they've not been too close with the deceased, they could somehow feel the hurt of losing a friend. he was a nice friend and will always be remembered. and may our prayers be with him always. al-fatihah.
for my family and friends out there whom i love so much. please remind yourself of what've happened in the past, learn it; what is here in the present, cherish it every moment; and what will happen to us in the future, God wills it, get ready for whatever it is to come. i love every one of you

xoxo

~nuTt*~

falling out of love

Artist: Aqualung
Album: Strange And Beautiful
Title: Falling Out Of Love
I watch the sun
See it rise and fall
Waiting for something to change
I get through the day
Hope to turn things around
Seems like I'm falling out of love
Feeling alone
With you by my side
Further and further away
Funny how long
A moment can seem
When you're trying to hold on
Feels like I'm falling out of love

...And It's Brighter Than Sunshine...

Artist:
Aqualung
Album:
Strange And Beautiful
Title: Brighter Than Sunshine
I never understood before
I never knew what love was for
My heart was broke, my head was sore
What a feeling Tied up in ancient history
I didnt believe in destiny
I look up you're standing next to me
What a feeling
What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
Brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, i don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine
And it's brighter than sunshine
I never saw it happening
I'd given up and given in
I just couldn't take the hurt again
What a feeling
I didn't have the strength to fight
Suddenly you seemed so right
Me and you
What a feeling
What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
It's brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, I don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine
It's brighter than the sun
It's brighter than the sun
It's brighter than the sun, sun, shine.
Love will remain a mystery
But give me your hand and you will see
Your heart is keeping time with me
What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
It's brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, I don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine
I got a feeling in my soul ... [repeat chorus to end]

I'll Put A Spell On You

Artist: Aqualung
Album: Strange and Beautiful
Title: Strange and Beautiful

I've been watching your world from afar
I've been trying to be where you are
And I've been secretly falling apart
Unseen
To me, you're strange and you're beautiful
You'd be so perfect with me
But you just can't see
You turn every head but you don't see me
I'll put a spell on you
You fall asleep
And I put a spell on you
And when I wake you I'll be the first thing you see
And you'll realise that you love me
YeahYe-ah
Sometimes the last thing you want comes in first
Sometimes the first thing you want never comes
But I know that waiting is all you can do
Sometimes
I'll put a spell on you
You fall asleep
I'll put a spell on you
And when I wake you I'll be the first thing you see
And you'll realise that you love me
I'll put a spell on you
You fall asleep
Cause I put a spell on you
And when I wake you I'll be the first thing you see
And you'll realise that you love me, yeah
YeahYe-ah
YeahYe-ah