Selamat Hari Raya
Maaf Zahir dan Batin...
Love 'n Kisses,
~nuTt*~
Saturday, October 13, 2007
Friday, October 12, 2007
Thursday, October 11, 2007
...
I'm scared and I think that I am about to cry any time soon.. I'm so not looking forward for the holidays..
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
ooooooooooo...
i'm a little tired. i'm a little emotional, but i'm not sure what i'm feeling right now. in my head right now i'm trying to figure out what i'm supposed to do. omg. i've got so much to do and i don't think that i'd be enjoying raya much. ish. i wish i could dream on my bed right now. under the comforter. wahhh... the weather is so hot today. the sun is so bright. and i hate the sun today. really dreading the weather. oh, i got a new lip color (estee lauder - Pure Color 112 Beige) I just love the color, because this time of the year i couldn't find the right color for myself. i'm like so dark that not many colors suits me. i wish i'm not so dark, and i wish that i have good complexion. eeeee.... so jealous of nabby! lol. i'm trying to distract myself from something now, but what???
i don't know. i'd rather dream of some prince from some faraway kingdom in his shining armor... lol.. and his long hair!! ..wahahah.. i want to go home and sleep!!!! :D
i don't know. i'd rather dream of some prince from some faraway kingdom in his shining armor... lol.. and his long hair!! ..wahahah.. i want to go home and sleep!!!! :D
Work Work Work!
I'm dreadfully exhausted.MDM's done.in an hour-FIS!!after that,study for tomorrow's Law Test!worgh..gus iboh jak raya..
Tuesday, October 09, 2007
Monday, October 08, 2007
i have a lame heart
i have a lame heart
it doesn't tick like a clock
it doesn't beat like a drum
i think it's blocked
i have a lame heart
it rarely gives out to you
it only brags about you
what am i to do?
my lame heart works less and less
sometimes it burns more and more
yet hollow it remains
it doesn't connect to my brain
my lame heart stopped me from breathing
my lame heart stopped my brain from thinking
i think it is hurt, maybe it's swelling
o what am i to do?
what am i to do
to cure my lame heart?
what am i to do
to know what's wrong?
o this never ending story about my lame heart...
it doesn't tick like a clock
it doesn't beat like a drum
i think it's blocked
i have a lame heart
it rarely gives out to you
it only brags about you
what am i to do?
my lame heart works less and less
sometimes it burns more and more
yet hollow it remains
it doesn't connect to my brain
my lame heart stopped me from breathing
my lame heart stopped my brain from thinking
i think it is hurt, maybe it's swelling
o what am i to do?
what am i to do
to cure my lame heart?
what am i to do
to know what's wrong?
o this never ending story about my lame heart...
Sunday, October 07, 2007
Saturday, October 06, 2007
The Fray - How To Save A Life lyrics
Artist: The Fray
Album: How To Save A Life
Year: 2005
Title: How To Save A Life
Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
You begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
How to save a life
How to save a life
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
How to save a life
* This song is so heartbreaking. Listening to the lyrics, or just by reading through the lyrics I feel as though I've been such a selfish b*tch. I wish I could save someone. I shall make it a goal for me to save someone anytime sooner or later before I die! (I'm not being suicidal, I'm human. So there is no need to save me...lol)
Artist: The Fray
Album: How To Save A Life
Year: 2005
Title: How To Save A Life
Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
You begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
How to save a life
How to save a life
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
How to save a life
* This song is so heartbreaking. Listening to the lyrics, or just by reading through the lyrics I feel as though I've been such a selfish b*tch. I wish I could save someone. I shall make it a goal for me to save someone anytime sooner or later before I die! (I'm not being suicidal, I'm human. So there is no need to save me...lol)
Save Our Poor Soul
These souls they are drifting away
parting our lives
splitting our hearts
and leaving us with nothing more than what we learn to know
And all that we have learnt destroys us
confusing, bringing back all the difficult times
back to our minds, our lives...
But we're still learning
every steps we take we are yearning
for someone or something we've not passed through
and thus, we may not know...
parting our lives
splitting our hearts
and leaving us with nothing more than what we learn to know
And all that we have learnt destroys us
confusing, bringing back all the difficult times
back to our minds, our lives...
But we're still learning
every steps we take we are yearning
for someone or something we've not passed through
and thus, we may not know...
Of Time and Space
With hair let down
eyes sheding tears
she hid behind the dark of strands
she hid behind the heart of years
Back and forth
to and fro
she hailed her time
to magical days
But the truth might disclose this:
she's still stuck in the mid of time and space.
Alive the dreams she held inside
alive the sorrow back in time
but holding her back is one true compassion
this horrid scar which birth this rhyme
This is left of one difficult confession
may periods of life sustain a hymn
that'd pierce your heart and also mine
live it, or leave it...
for you to decide and I to decline...
eyes sheding tears
she hid behind the dark of strands
she hid behind the heart of years
Back and forth
to and fro
she hailed her time
to magical days
But the truth might disclose this:
she's still stuck in the mid of time and space.
Alive the dreams she held inside
alive the sorrow back in time
but holding her back is one true compassion
this horrid scar which birth this rhyme
This is left of one difficult confession
may periods of life sustain a hymn
that'd pierce your heart and also mine
live it, or leave it...
for you to decide and I to decline...
Chak!
I was out with Ben and Syam, pegi fixing my acoustic guitar.. wah.. the day was soooooo hot.... i could've sworn i almost fainted...hehehhe... i feel like eating sushi and waffles!!!!!! :~(
i want sushi and waffles!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...and sotong and terubok panggang!!!!!!!!!!!!!! omg i'm so hungry...
Friday, October 05, 2007
My New Ride!
Yay,a new car for raya!i'd hate to brag abt it-omg i hav to work harder cos i dun feel like i deserve it!
Wednesday, October 03, 2007
I'm actually THINKING!!! yay...
I don't think anybody noticed how pressured I've been lately. I have tons to do, yet I've not been moving much. There are spaces to move around to, yet there was no will that allowed me to do so. But why? I think I've been thinking too much -AGAIN. Mostly about things that shouldn't matter much to me like - insecurity about some stuff; the eagerness to get back home and sleep; my latest distraction *it's a secret*; my addiction to something *not all those stuff that might temper my health..it's SECRET TOO*; and my dependence towards someone that I shouldn't even be doing anymore....
Well, what the heck. I should continue with my work. Some of my friends had done well by consoling and giving me advise so that I'd do well for myself. I can't display your names because I might forget to include some, and I don't need no DRAMA darlings... :D kissy kissy thank YOU. I LOVE YOU. eheheh.. pajak la...
Well, what the heck. I should continue with my work. Some of my friends had done well by consoling and giving me advise so that I'd do well for myself. I can't display your names because I might forget to include some, and I don't need no DRAMA darlings... :D kissy kissy thank YOU. I LOVE YOU. eheheh.. pajak la...
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
what else is there to do? clearing up some photos from phone..
This shot is kinda creepy... I mean apa ya? (what's that?)
This is the view I'd get from my grandma's lazy bed near her kitchen.
My Messy Room
ZSA ZSA!!! It's the BAG!!! lol...
Insomnia... Amnesia... Paranoia... Phobia.. Nadia????
Heeshh.. I cannot seem to sleep these few nights -- INSOMNIA. I need to sleep. I need to. I don't seem to remember the last time I slept early... - AMNESIA. Raya is coming and my complexion is getting worst and worst. And I've not started studying or working on my assignments at all.. - PARANOIA. I don't want to repeat anymore!!! *touchwood* I can't afford to just PASS this semester.. NO!!!! - PHOBIA!!!! what is wrong with you NADIA?!!!!!!!
I'm Trying to be Romantic Here....!!! lol
i should get back to my work now!! lol ... that was FUN!!!
Monday, October 01, 2007
In Student Lounge...
i didn't attend my e-Biz tute today, i got to campus late.. so i hung out in the Student Lounge...
This is so embarassing... look at the apparent blemishes on my face! Someone HELP..sik lamak gik Raya!!
Here are pictures pictures i took while in there...
Here's Awang who had just entered.....What's wrong with Juhan here? EMO!!!
... and Nora - she's not fasting today!!! :P~~ so unfair!Finally we had to turn to UNO for entertainment's sake.........
Regrets.. I Have A LOT!!!
Fri, Sep 28, 2007 -- Forum mark Kindly check your marks. If anyone of you want to "debate" =), mostly welcome. Otherwise, I look forward for the next few forums and assignment. I might do some input mistakes, if you want to ask, I'm happy to explain and double check with you.Remind you all again that 60% are for new threads and 40% are for replies. To understand on the marking criteria, you can go to Assignment->Assessment Criteria.Do not let the marks "demotivate" you. Try your best in the next coming forums.this one was taken from blackboard.. i'm so disappointed with myself.. i have to do better cos i'm on the verge of falling into the unknown and unwanted... :(
Dinner (sungkey)... and the Dark!! [D n the D]
guess where this is!!!
...the ATM machine looks so dangerous in the dark... BOO!!!
Coffee Bean (Sarawak Plaza) in the DARK!!! looks so creepy right??? look at that shadow !!!
waiting near the traffic light outside of TJ!!! :D
my dish!!! i puked the chicken soon after this picture was taken XO~~~
Sepul... feasting... feasting... and feasting again....
that 's his yellow jersey there... and his mashed potatoes + ice cream.... bluek!!!
that 's his yellow jersey there... and his mashed potatoes + ice cream.... bluek!!!
That's how it looks like upclose!!!!!
the sequence is actually like this:
- had dinner at Hartz Chicken Buffet with Syam, Sepul + Nora, Julian, Jerry and Apeet...
- more like sungkey la.. duh... bulan posa..
- discussed about Jules presidency.. lol.. I WILL VOTE FOR JULIAN JOHN AND SO SHOULD YOU!
- walked to TJ - window-shopping at Vincci bcos there was a sale! best... but i am broke...
- got back at Sarawak Plaza.. and whoooshhh... suddenly blackout when Nora and I were surveying some stuff at Cindy... eheheh.. so THEN we had to go home... the END~~
Last Sunday... :D
whoa!!!! this is the view you'd get when you're sitting at Monsoon Cafe in the afternoon...(in Riverbank Suite building)...
Come.. i dunno how to promote.. helping Helong to promote here... so lame la me...
Come.. i dunno how to promote.. helping Helong to promote here... so lame la me...
a year plus plus... and movin' on..
wahhh!!!already in third semester of my degree year.. all the pressures and tensions above the level of my head right now.. i'm scared.. my life is going down the drain and i don't know how to fix it. i think i need to be alone for awhile. i'm scared of facing anyone who knows me and i don't think i'm up to meeting anyone new. i seriously feel like i'm full of shit now. i am insecured. down. tired. i don't think i could move on. everything is wrong because i feel that i am wrong. wrong. wrong...
i need someone to hold on to. but who? because when it comes to all these crap... i don't know! i don't want to drive you mad over my problems. i'm sorry. i cannot do this. goodnight.
i need someone to hold on to. but who? because when it comes to all these crap... i don't know! i don't want to drive you mad over my problems. i'm sorry. i cannot do this. goodnight.
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