falling out of love

Artist: Aqualung
Album: Strange And Beautiful
Title: Falling Out Of Love
I watch the sun
See it rise and fall
Waiting for something to change
I get through the day
Hope to turn things around
Seems like I'm falling out of love
Feeling alone
With you by my side
Further and further away
Funny how long
A moment can seem
When you're trying to hold on
Feels like I'm falling out of love

...And It's Brighter Than Sunshine...

Artist:
Aqualung
Album:
Strange And Beautiful
Title: Brighter Than Sunshine
I never understood before
I never knew what love was for
My heart was broke, my head was sore
What a feeling Tied up in ancient history
I didnt believe in destiny
I look up you're standing next to me
What a feeling
What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
Brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, i don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine
And it's brighter than sunshine
I never saw it happening
I'd given up and given in
I just couldn't take the hurt again
What a feeling
I didn't have the strength to fight
Suddenly you seemed so right
Me and you
What a feeling
What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
It's brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, I don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine
It's brighter than the sun
It's brighter than the sun
It's brighter than the sun, sun, shine.
Love will remain a mystery
But give me your hand and you will see
Your heart is keeping time with me
What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
It's brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, I don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine
I got a feeling in my soul ... [repeat chorus to end]

I'll Put A Spell On You

Artist: Aqualung
Album: Strange and Beautiful
Title: Strange and Beautiful

I've been watching your world from afar
I've been trying to be where you are
And I've been secretly falling apart
Unseen
To me, you're strange and you're beautiful
You'd be so perfect with me
But you just can't see
You turn every head but you don't see me
I'll put a spell on you
You fall asleep
And I put a spell on you
And when I wake you I'll be the first thing you see
And you'll realise that you love me
YeahYe-ah
Sometimes the last thing you want comes in first
Sometimes the first thing you want never comes
But I know that waiting is all you can do
Sometimes
I'll put a spell on you
You fall asleep
I'll put a spell on you
And when I wake you I'll be the first thing you see
And you'll realise that you love me
I'll put a spell on you
You fall asleep
Cause I put a spell on you
And when I wake you I'll be the first thing you see
And you'll realise that you love me, yeah
YeahYe-ah
YeahYe-ah

Vanity

I'm so bored with myself!

Express.Expressive.Expression.Exasperation?

obviously, i am very bored right now. i'm supposed to browse my textbook, but i'm doing this. i am tired right now. tired of many things that's been going on. SAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAVE MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! yeah, i'm a bit nuts right now. oh yeah, before i move on with my life story, i'd like to express my deep sympathy to those who had thought that i've been flirting on them. i'm sorry, i'm too arrogant to flirt. if me trying to be nice irritates you, then SAY IT TO MY FACE, YOU IDIOT.
and so, i've been reading this romance novel. gila boring. all i read is about girls letting themselves fall into the crutches of male ego. BODO EH! and the authors a women. what happened to all those intelligent view of love? does it not exist??? is it always just lust? and no just for that thing we call equality? bah, if all the stories written that way, apa jak la!

ok then, i guess i have to move on with dearest textbook now. buh byes~

I Could Have Lied

Artist: Red Hot Chili Peppers
Album: Blood Sugar Sex Magik
Title: I Could Have Lied
There must be something
In the way I feel
That she don't want me to feel
The stare she bares cut me
I don't care
You see so what if I bleed
I could never change
Just what I feel
My face will never show
What is not real
A mountain never seems to have
The need to speak
A look that shares so many seek
The sweetest feeling
I got from you
The things I said to you were true
I could never change
Just what I feel
My face will never show
What is not real
I could have lied I'm such a fool
My eyes could never never never
Keep their cool
Showed her and I told her how
She struck me but I'm fucked up now
But now she's gone yes she's gone away
A soulful song
That would not stay
You see she hides 'cause she is scared
But I don't care
I won't be spared

Breaking the Girl

Artist: Red Hot Chili Peppers
Album: Blood Sugar Sex Magik
Title: Breaking The Girl
I am a man
Cut from the know
Rarely do friends
Come and then go
She was a girl
Soft but estranged
We were the two
Our lives rearranged
Feeling so good that day
A feeling of love that day
Twisting and turning
Your feelings are burning
You're breaking the girl
She meant you no harm
Think you're so clever
But now you must sever
You're breaking the girl
He loves no one else
Raised by my dad
Girl of the day
He was my man
That was the way
She was the girl
Left alone
Feeling the need
To make me her home
I don't know what when or why
The twilight of love had arrived
Twisting and turning
Your feelings are burning
You're breaking the girl
She meant you no harm
Think you're so clever
But now you must sever
You're breaking the girl
He loves no one else
Twisting and turning
Your feelings are burning
You're breaking the girl
She meant you no harm
Think you're so clever
But now you must sever
You're breaking the girl
He loves no one else

Why Don't You Love Me

Artist: Red Hot Chili Peppers
Album: Red Hot Chili Peppers
Title: Why Don't You Love Me
Why don't you love me like you used to do?
How come you treat me like a worn out shue
My hair's still curly and my eyes are still blue
So why don't you love me like you used to do?
Why don't you spot me like you used to do?
When you whisper sweet nothings like you used to do
I'm the same old trouble that you've always been through
So why don't you love me like you used to do?
Why don't you be the way you used to be?
How come you fight so many fights with me
Somebody changed, so lemme give you a clue
Why don't you love me like you used to do?
Why don't you say the things you used to say?
How come you treat me like a piece of clay
My hair's still curly and my eyes are still blue
So why don't you love me like you used to do?
You can't keep a lovin' and a huggin' and a kissin' and I don't know why...
We don't get near or further closer land of country mouths
I don't love like a huggin' and a kissin' and I don't know why...
We don't get near or further closer land of country mouths
Take the ball...

What Angry Blue

Artist: 7 Mary 3
Album: Rock Crown
Title: What Angry Blue
I know how the good wind blows
and it gives me my time
Don't let them drag your hatred off the line
I know how the anger goes so I bury mine
You know they had me working overtime
I want no part of your blackheart causes
empty speeches
broken promise
I know how the anger flows so I carried time
Don't let them drag the needle through your dime
I know how the hatred goes so I buried mine
Lucky seven Lucky rolls the dice
Yeah that's right.
I want no part of your blackheart causes.
All this preaching and still no progress
What angry blue has got into you?

Tummy ache, Vengeance and Concern

It's 10:21 am. I'm on the breakfast table. Chatting with my grandmother about smelly cheese. I have been complaining about this stomach ache I've been having these few days. This feeling will never leave me. urgh. Why can't I think like men? Darn it. I'm trying now. I MUST be SELFISH. I MUST stop WHINING. I MUST STUDY!!! And stop this NONSENSE. Somehow I feel deep concern about some situations befalling some people. They have hurt me badly, yet there is this little space in my heart that is left empty for them. Whatever it is, STOP TAKING ME FOR GRANTED AND TREATING ME LIKE I'M NOT WORTHY! AND STOP MAKING FUN OF ME, DISSING ME AND TREATING ME LIKE I DON'T HAVE FEELINGS!!!! I'll show you what I'm made of!!! *anger*

CHER LYRICS
"Strong Enough"
I don't need your sympathy
There's nothing you can say or do for me
And I don't want a miracle
You'll never change for no one
I hear your reasons why
Where did you sleep last night?
And was she worth it, was she worth it?
'Cos I'm strong enough
To live without you
Strong enough and I quit crying
Long enough now I'm strong enough
To know you gotta go
There's no more to say
So save your breath
And then walk away
No matter what I hear you say
I'm strong enough to know you gotta go
So you feel misunderstood
Baby, have I got news for you
On being used,
I could write a book
You don't wanna hear about it
I've been losing sleep
You've been going cheap
She ain't worth half of me it's true
I'm telling you
Now I'm strong enough to live without you
Strong enough and I quit crying
Long enough now
I'm strong enough
To know you gotta go
Come hell or waters high
You'll never see me cry
This is our last goodbye, it's true
I'm telling you
That I'm strong enough to live without you
Strong enough and I quit crying
Long enough now
I'm strong enough
To know you gotta go
There's no more to say
So save your breath
And you walk away
No matter what I hear you say
I'm strong enough to know you gotta go

hmm...

a letter to you

dear you
i'm tired of feeling this way. i always had someone to lean on to and now i cannot even believe in anyone - at all. i'm tired of all those people making me feel like shit. i'm tired of of idiots who couldn't grow up. i'm tired of liars and cheaters. i don't think i could breathe anymore, thinking about all this. i have no one to help me anymore. no one for me to share my thoughts with. no one to care for me. i hate you. i hate you so much. it will always be me. i'll always be the wrong one. you will never be satisfied until you know that i'm miserable. well i am. i hope that when you read this you will be laughing your balls off for i have died in your torture. i will never love and be loved by anyone ever again.

This is it

SO this is it. I'm feeling totally empty, yet there is pain somewhere in my head, my chest, my back and my stomach. I think somehow I'm having troubles breathing. I cannot believe all this. But I do now. It was crystal clear but I've been denying it the whole time. This hurts. I can have anything I would want if I put my heart on it, but this is just too much. What is it that I have done wrong? You hate me. You told me that you didn't care. But I refused to believe that. What did I do to you that makes you hurt me so badly? I sobbed everynight. I himuliated myself the whole time. And hated myself for not knowing where I went wrong, up 'til tonight. I need to get out of here. I'll be catching the next bus out of here. I'm sorry I couldn't make you love me as I have loved you. And right now, all I know is that I'll never be able to love or accept anyone to love me ever.