susah. susah gilak

okay, here goes...

i'm here
stuck with words
that i couldn't come up with
it's wrong
it's against me
so i'm shutting up
not displaying
not hinting
not trying to make you see through me
because you'll see underneath it all
is just a scum
an urchin
a useless torn tissue
discolored.

so it'd be like this
just as it is
no more emotional communication
nor sadness alike
just as it is.

just as it is
as susah as it might be.

let it be.