Appreciation....Depreciation..

Have you ever realised that life is actually VERY beautiful? Undeniably, it is.. and most of the time people like me just don't know how to appreciate it. Terok right?
Everyday when I wake up, I'd have people who loves me surrounding me.. like my Grandma, Z, my other brothers.. my Mom.. some mornings I'd receive like texts from my besties... telling me that they love me.. best ba idup tok..but why do I still feel empty?
It's not like I'm in love or something. I'm over that! It's not like any of my problems are bigger than taik idong.. it's really not! Am I just feeling too hyper that it's taking me to that level where it actually gets me super slowww... haha! sakit this feeling dow!
Maybe I'm just running out of things to do. Or maybe I'm tired of planning, knowing most of my plans would musnah in the end.. heheh.. dramatic~ I give up very easily dah now, or memang I cepat give up.. belom apa2, plan pun sik btol, dah give up.. ok.. I think I'm like that... eheheh...
Or maybe I'm just scared to do something that I've been longing to do, because... because why? Because I malas nak hoping that it'd end up being the way it was planned? huhh.. pahal ku tok?
Eeeee... gai eh... nang boring la... hahaha... ju lah! suggest to me stuff that I can do to get over this psychotic feeling... hehehe